Blue isn't really my colour.

The log cabin party

        Friday, 12th of April, 2019
    
     A bright light shone from the window as my mom yelled at me to wake up. I couldn't bear trying to get up from those soft sheets that kept me warm and fuzzy but, with a huge effort, I stood up with my eyes still closed. In the almost panicked atmosphere that my mom created, I decided to ignore my feelings and go to the bathroom at a rapid pace. 

      I washed my face and brushed my teeth taking a quick break to look at myself in the mirror. I'm ugly... Isn't this what every teen says: "Wow, I'm so ugly, lol." or " Ugh, I'm so ugly.". Have you ever wondered why? Its because society decided what beautiful is for us... We got trapped without even knowing, and now ... Now we are their puppets and it's our job to be "normal". But what if I don't want to be normal? I am not normal.                 
     I got out of the bathroom and dressed up with a large hoodie and a pair of baggy jeans, and caught my hair in a bun trying to make it look as manly as possible. 'Maybe they won't pick on me today, I don't feel like standing up to them ...' I thought while getting my bag. 
    
     I headed downstairs and ate breakfast in a rush hoping my mom won't come to check on me. 
    
     "Kyle! Are you eating your breakfast?", my mom softly asked
     "Yea, mom" I know what you're thinking, I'm a douchebag but believe it or not I do love her, I only wished that she would just let me be independent. I'm 17 I can't still let her dress me and feed me with a spoon.
     " Ok, hurry up! It's getting late!"
    
      I finished the scrambled eggs and I gulped down my orange juice whilst grabbing my lunchbox. I ran outside and grabbed my skateboard, hopped on and sprinted down the streets of my quiet neighborhood hoping my teacher won't be too mad at me.

        💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙
    

     Once there I stepped off my skateboard and left it in my locker, whilst also picking up my books for the next class, Math. I met Lina, my girlfriend, on the way to my class. I waved to her and she turned around with a smile on her face, jumping into my arms to hug me. I placed a soft kiss on her head but she stared at my books with an annoyed glare.
   
      "Wait, you weren't going to a class where you?"
     " No, I-I was just....." Unable to respond she just grabbed my hand and forced me to enter into her car.
     "Wait, where are we going? I can't miss another lesson you know that!"
     "Oh forget it wuss! Were going to a log cabin party! Now let's go to your house so you could pack your bags were staying the whole weekend!"
     
     A party! I'm really not in the mood for that but I can't say no to her... I gulped and I added "Fine" as we drove off.

     I slithered into the house and quickly packed my bags trying to not make it noticeable. I left a message on the table for my mom saying that I'm spending the weekend at a friend's house, and went back to Lina's car.
    
     "Are you happy now?" I asked irritated but she turns around looking at me with a lustful look.
     "Maybe you would stop chickening out for once and actually satisfy me..." she said starting the car and setting up the GPS. One whole hour of hell, great...
      "What do you mean, I'm not enough?"
      "No Ethan, don't get me wrong, you're great and sweet but a woman has her needs... And I might need to satisfy them with someone else if you won't get over it quickly."
      "No Lina! I'll do it with you tonight, I'm, not a wuss I just don't want to rush it... But I'll do it for you..."
      " Then get ready, baby, we're going to have a lot of fun.." she winked at me and firmly place one of her hands between my legs.
     
     I felt relieved when she finally took her hand off from my crouch bt that didn't stop my thoughts to come flooding in. What if I screw up, will she just cheat on me? What if I cant put my condom on? It is my first time and shes already pressuring me soo much.
    
      " So who else is coming?"
      " Oh it's not going to be a huge party just me and you, Ethan, Betty, James, Axel, Hannah, Adrian and his boyfriend Jack."
      "Oh cool..."
      "Oh come on be excited were going to have lots of fun, get wasted and you know just relax, so don't be so tense."
     " Ok, I guess..."
     "That's the spirit" she said while we entered a forest.
    
     Once we got there 3 cars were parked in front of a huge log cabin. The place was very rustic and quiet, which totally didn't match a bunch of horny teenagers that were about to start a party.
   
     I got out of the car when a tall, muscular guy came out of the cabin. Lina presented him as the owner of the cabin and also the host of the party, Ethan. He shook my hand and I did the same, only that he looked rather aroused than happy to meet me. He held his gaze for a tad too long but I decided that I should just avoid him at all costs. He freaked me out but I ignored it and went to introduce myself to the other people that came to the party.
    
     Everything went well, I got my bags out of the car and Ethan lead us to our room which was very modern and spacious. Ethan whispered something in Lina's ear and she nodded in excitement, but I decided to ignore it. I layed on the bed while Lina was unpacking everything and arranging them in order.