Walk With Me || Taekook FF

Feeling Not So Well

Kim Taehyung...

My brother's best friend...

He's in the same class as me this year, huh.

I looked away, feeling my face go hot.

I've always thought he was cool but..

Before that incident, I've gotten confused about how I was feeling towards him. Only my brother knew that. If anyone else were to find out, I'd be dead. Kim Taehyung was one of the most popular guys here in school. The fact that he's single makes everyone go wild for him. But he's always not interested. No one even really knows what his type was, or if he was into girls or boys. My face was heating up a bit so I looked away, busying myself setting my notebooks and books aside. Few moments later, all the other students had arrived. Chitter Chatter on every corner of the room, I found myself listening in on conversations. 

Did you hear? His brother got thrown off...

Yeah they were attacked by....

Can't believe they did that....

What a waste..

His brother should've died instead...

Fucking wimp....

He should just die...

Oh.

Now I know. 

Now I know why this felt worse. They were harassing me indirectly...

They are talking about me as if I'm not even here. As if I don't exist. As if I'm the one who had died instead of my brother. 

Tears had already threatened to fall, but as if on cue, someone yelled.

"All of you, shut the fuck up!"

A loud bang on a table to silence the rest.

Everyone turned to look at a now very pissed off Kim Taehyung, clenching his fists on the table. His cold eyes, though he looked sleepy, had shot thousands of daggers at everyone. They all hurried back to their seats after angering the sleeping man. It was awkward and silent. But disregarding that, he fell back asleep with a face of annoyance. I side glanced at him and saw how his sleeping face right now looked completely...

Hot..

Oh god what was I thinking.

I can't just think about stuff like this. I don't have time for it. I shouldn't be enjoying myself after what happened. No, not after my brother. I went back to having a blank expression across my face. I can't show any other emotion. I don't have the right to. After what I haven't done for my brother, I can't live a normal life. It's unfair for him. He had so much to live for, not me, I had nothing. 

The teacher walked in, surprised at how silent and tensed it was. As the class went on after I introduced my name, I can't help but feel a set of eyes on me throughout the lesson. After taking down a couple of notes, I looked to my right and caught Kim Taehyung staring. He just gave me an emotionless gaze as my eyes bored into his.

What is it that you want Kim Taehyung?

He looked away after awhile and that's when I guessed he probably wasn't looking at me. He was probably looking at something else. Class continued on as I scribbled down doodles onto my notepad. When time skipped to lunch, everyone had seemed to dash outside in a hurry. Well I get it. The hallways get too crowded when everyone heads to the cafeteria during lunch. Arranging my desk before leaving, as soon as I was supposed to walk out the door, I was pulled back by someone.