Neko's P.O.V
This day was exhausted, I have been through all of this hater who doesn't even forgive me from 4 month ago? I perhaps, until this day on this hour.''Hmfff'' I sighed as I started to think about this problem again then I took my step into my bedroom and didn't even bother to throw my bag at the other side of my corner room. This is it? I am always alone in my own room yet quite peaceful for me to think alone, no scolding from my mother either no stresses. I can see my dear keyboard that I dearly called her Socia. Its seem there is no stand for my Socia, she was now lay on the floor with my note book at the top of the black and white key.
I sat on the floor and started to click 'onn' button then began to play it. My fingers started to dance for the rhythm on this key, playing beautiful melody that I always played it since I was in 5 years old. I, Dayang Nurfarzana as for the short form they called me Farzana but as for Masy and the Trio they called me Neko because of my Profile Facebook's name site. I lived with my parents and a cat that I called him a Prince. I have 4 siblings, curently they were already married and my other two sister continued studying for their better future.
I was their only last and 15 years old daughter, currently still studying at High School. I was always alone in my room. I didn't attempt to speak my parents because I love to locked my door away from them also I didn't even know why? It's kind of boring that is my older also close brother already married with his wife and gone from this clan. I still remember when I was 5 years old, I stumble into my brother's room to have a permission for playing a game on his computer. When I was in his bedroom, I can see him playing his computer game.
I took a glance around his room then something caught my attention. At the side corner of his room, stood a big box with a label said 'Keyboard Casio'. I stared at it for a long time then manage to speak ''Wow! what's that?'' I said to him while pointing at it ''It's keyboard'' he replied then he took his step and went to my side ''Do you wanted to play it?'' He asked and I was like ''Yes!'' with a nod. He then took those box and open it revealing a black and white coloured keyboard then he place it on the floor. He took a battery from the unwanted box and began to connect it into the keyboard then he tried to play and from that day, I learn to play a keyboard from myself by learning to understand the note and everything that related on playing a keyboard. I played Canon that my brother suggested on me until this year I still keep playing although it was an old song but for me it never been old.
That day, I was struggle for the 'what performance I should do' it's seem my class were having a Music Class, I meet this Teacher who I presume he was kind of rude when I didn't get to know him. Everytime, when my class having a music lesson with him. I was kind of shaking yet sweating because I was fear that he will point at me and asked some random question about the note. If I can't answer it, I will be accepting the humilating consequence. About the performance, it was compulsory for all student whom taking a Music Class. At first I was at Athirah's group. Their group was taking a Drama but one of their friends didn't like me with them and also she didn't write my name on their group member. Now I was kind of lost and stresses began to control over me.
I asked Masy on private message at facebook chat since she was a only senior in Music Club that I know and also an active member. She told me if I didn't have any group, I need to perform in solo by playing a keyboard on a stage. My mind went crazy that time then I refuse her advice and think for a moment. Also I asked Rusyidah, my classmate, her answer was same as Masy. I think and I think. I took my time too much only to think, until the upcoming performance was getting near then I began to panic like hell yeah.
Then I asked Masy again on her private chat, it's seem we didn't have a time to have any appointment at school, so I decide to ask her in online way. Her answer was a same as always ''Just play a keyboard plus you were good at it and double plus it was rare that's our Music student play a keyboard for the performance'' I was began to give my hope that day because of my traumatized about a stage fright, then she added ''I will be along side with you, playing a Guitar Bass can help this situation, anyway I have a plenty time also we will play the canon'' and I was like thanks to god ''I would be happy if you were there, thank you'' I said to her and from that moment I began to pratice and practice until I have a dream about my keyboard playing a Canon.
Tomorrow was a Canteen Day event, Masy told me to stay at a Music Class that was a teacher's class either. I was now taking a glance around the crowded that was at the road also asked someone if they saw Masy or whatever. It's been a hell around here, then finally I found her. Yeah I found her alright. I stumble over her who was now carrying a guitar bag then I clear my throat to attracted her attention. As she spun her head around her eyes went wide open and ''Mygad Neko, let's go for the practice'' she said happily then we went to the music class. There stood a tall figure who I assumed he was my Music Teacher. As he saw our figure that curently heading over his direction, he then smiled as he saw Masy, it was like 'Long time no see buddy' ''Teacher'' said Masy ''Here she is, our pianist can we borrow for the class?'' She asked for the permission and I was like activating my silent mode ''Weh of course of course!'' He chimed happily and let us enter. He stumble into his keyboard and click a onn button. He even give me a chair so I can be more comfortable to play it. It was weird he acted like this. A rude teacher I know was acting weirdo.
As I lay my finger on a keyboard, my heart began to beat freaking faster also it can broke my ribcage if I stay nervous like this. How can I be nervous if he still looking at me, begging for me to play it. Then my finger began to play a Canon song as for Masy she assured me not to be nervous infront of him while playing a guitar. I can even imagine, how am I going to do this infront of a Junior Student whom was going to be the audience for the upcoming performance. My hand was hard as stone as I played a keyboard and even my fingers was hell shaking at that moment. ''Syitah'' he finally spoke. ''It was rare having a pianist for our Music Class right?'' He asked Masy who was currently playing a guitar ''Yah, rare at this year'' she replied ''she was good playing at those keyboard it was beautiful tho'' he added then he played a funny joke on me about not to be nervous and whatever.
It was a day, I still remember a scene that I was at the backstage with Masy. I was kind of nervous to death as for Masy she was calm. I was sweating and this action makes me stood like a dummy. I didn't even attempt to breath or move. ''Calm down dude, it was just a duet performance'' she said and command me to sit for a while then without a minute I stand from my sit and face infront of the white painted wall, as for Masy, she began to pat on my back and manage to say ''Calm down Neko it's all going to be fine'' she continued pat on me. I was began to cried that time, fear began to control over me and without a minute ''Let's go'' she said then my feet automatically went to the stage. I went to the empty sit and sat on the chair that has a keyboard infront of me. ''Neko, those volume'' she pointed at the volume controler ''don't forget to make it louder'' she whispered but being panic I am, I didn't even bother about adjusting the volume then I started to play faster as I could, as for Masy, she mentally facepalm and began to follow my tempo. It was noisy at here, the crowd didn't even took their attention because of this keyboard that I was playing was in low volume. I was mad because I played many wrong key like in triple mistake also with those annoying noise they made.
Finally, it's over. I am free as I took my step out from the stage. Yes I am free at last but still I miss those freaking sweating moment. I smiled as I remember those memory then I began to click a off button and gone to my comfortable bed to let the tiredness day away from my mind.
