It's that feeling you get when you first wake up in the morning. The one that brightens your day, only to be ripped away from you as if it meant absolutely nothing. That's what he felt every day when he comes home. He feels a small amount of happiness when talking to him and then it is ripped away from him by his reality.
It's that swelling darkness that consumes you.
Something you can't control but wish you could.
You wake up with zero motivation. No will to do what you know needs to be done. The swelling darkness invades your thoughts without your consent and keeps you from having a life. It keeps you from having friends. It keeps you from having a will to live.
They remind you you're not good enough. Never will be. That no matter what you do, no one will ever want to be with you. Like you're hanging from a rope and can't seem to pull yourself down from it.
You want to be forever suspended in the darkness because it's better than the real world.
It was what Kim Seokjin had to wake up to every day after his husband, Kim Namjoon, had died.
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PROMPTS - bts
Romancea book filled with little drabbles and ideas that pop into my head that i'm too lazy to make into books lol. i might in the future, though... lol. //mostly bts// see y'all later!
