He asked me if he could say "I love you." I said yeah of course its okay. Little did he know that, that, right there, saying 'i love you', meant a lot to me.. He helps me with the problems and I help him with his. I don't know why but he thinks I'm beautiful. Has he seen my face?!! I'm ugly as fuckkkkk! Him on the other hand.. Haha! He wants to hangout. Him and his friend want to hangout with me on Saturday. But he is going to a party I'm going to. He said he'll give me a hug, cuz you know, we're bestfriends!!!! I couldn't imagine life without him. He's probably the only thing I'm living for right now. Gavyn never said "I love you" but this boy that I love, says it everyday. I want to hangout, but I can't. I don't want him to see the new cuts on my arms. He's the person that I've been looking for.
I wonder.. What would our future look like? What would happen? If I die, would he be sad? Wait... What am I saying?!! Of course he'd be sad! He'd be sad if I said I didn't want to be friends. But you should listen to this song. It's awesome. One of my favorites actually. But even if he knew how much I love him.. He wouldn't love me back. He's got this friend named Trev and since he's Bi he 'wants' him. Which is okay, I thought it was cute. Haha. He added my to a group convo with Trev and I guess Trev wants to be friends. But not on facebook. :| that's aight tho! He's chill! Alrighty that's it. Buh-bye!!!
Sincerely, meh.
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The Diary
Non-FictionI'm gonna tell you 5 things about myself. 1. I'm a self-harmer 2. I love my friends 3. I'm a loner 4. I love heavy metal bands 5. I LOVE music.. A LOT. Sincerely, Me.
