Formula One OS (English/Français 🏎🇬🇧🇫🇷)

🇬🇧Kimi Raïkkönen-We just want to protect you

I can't sleep because of the temperature so I post this which have been in my drafts for months. I didn't even remember how it came to my mind. I hope there isn't too much mistakes, if you see some let me know! Enjoy!

In all these world problems, Sofia finds something positive : her father doesn't work and, as her school is closed, she can spend time with him. So, she left France where she does her studies to come back in Finland in her father's new house. Even if it has been five years since he moved there, she will never stop calling it new. She came from the airport this morning and, after having played with Robin and Rianna for two hours in the garden, she is now sat on the sofa with Kimi in front of the children who are sleeping. After a small talk about her classes, she starts the subject which, she knows it, will more likely end badly.

"I thought. At the end of my school year I want to do a kart championship. Or some rallye. In motorsport at least. I surely won't be in F1 or WRC but I would like to try motorsport."

She sees Kimi clenching his jaw after hearing those words. He is going to say no, as always. She thinks.

"No. You won't do this. I have already told you that."

"Why?" She gets angry. The irritation and the incomprehension of their previous discussions come back. "Robin do karting at 5 years old when at 20 years I've never do it with you! My father is a professional driver but it's my friends who taught me karting! You never let me do some! I barely could come to races, but karting? It wasn't medias' fault!"

"Sofia stop. Now."

Led by her words, she still continues. "Anyhow spending time with me wasn't your priority, was it? Of course no, to come back home wasn't important. You never want me. I'm a weight, an error, a stain in your life!"

Miraculously, the children don't woke up by the yells and are still sleeping. As Sofia stands up from the sofa, Kimi catchs her wrist and holds her.

"Never say that."He says to her, looking in her eyes. "Really Sofia. You are one of the most beautiful thing that happened in my life Kirppu." He takes her thin hands in his big ones et looks at it. "I was young, often away that's true, but I have loved you, and I love you, with all my heart. I tried my best to raise you, even if I wasn't a real adult myself. You did karting young. Of course it's one of the first thing I did with you, before teaching you to ride a bike, as soon as you have been tall enough to reach the pedals of the kart. But your mother didn't want you to be in motorsport. She already fears to lost me each weekend, so her daughter... And she is right. Robin and Rianna will do some races, as you, but as a hobby, they will never do competition. Minttu thinks the same. This sport reminds us too often his dangers. I don't want to lost you Sofia."

"But if Papi and Mummi have said that, you would never be a Formula One driver, you would never be world champion, you would never be totally happy! I'm the daughter of a F1 charismatic and emblematic world champion and I can't try my luck! However there is a lot "son of" drivers! Schumacher, Rosberg, Verstappen, Prost, Villeneuve ! Why not me? Because I'm a girl?"

"Sofia stop, it has nothing to do with this. Nico Rosberg doesn't want his children to be drivers, Seb either! We know the dangers, the complexity that come with it, and we don't want our children to endure that. Mark Zuckerberg and the others put their children in schools without screens, because they know the dangers of what they do. We only want to protect and preserve you Sofia."

"Yeah, of course." She sighs and rolls her eyes. This time she leaves the room to calm herself in the garden, in "her" place.

She only comes back for dinner, ignoring her father as much as possible during the meal and only answers with a cold tone if she is obliged to talk to him. After clearing the table, she goes to her bedroom, but as soon as she closes the door tears appear in her eyes. She doesn't even know how she hold them back the whole day. She doesn't really know why she is crying, just too much emotions. It's always the same, since her childhood, she can't sleep while being upset with her parents. Each time, they came to see her and took her in their arms before sleeping. But not anymore, she is 20. So she turns on the lamp on her bedside table and scrolls on her phone. She is taken out of her trance by a knock on her door, Kimi's face appears just after. "You aren't sleeping? " He slips in the room and comes lay down next to her.

"No. You know it. I was never able to do it when I was in dispute with you or mum." Kimi then takes his daughter in his arms and presses her against his torso, kissing her head.

"I thought too. Would you like to do the Dakar with me?" She looks at her father, hopeful, but then sighs.

"As copilot ?"

"No. Driver. I will try to be a better copilot."

"Really, you would let me drive?"

"Yes. I'm not sure to drive better that you, even less in the sand. And I will be more reassured if I am in the car. I don't think we will win, not because of your talent but, you know it, I'm really bad in orientation in a city so in the middle of the desert... I just want to share a moment with you."

Sofia nestles her head in his neck's crook and hold him tightly. "You are the best." Her father strokes her back for a few minutes then asks the question which is in his mind since their conflict.

"You meant what you said a bit earlier? Is that how you feel ? You are everything for me Kirppu. With Robin, Rianna and Minttu. You give a meaning in my life. Not Formula One. You. I love you. And I don't want you to feel embarrassed with this situation or out of the place. I understand it's not easy but you have your place here Sofia. Minttu and the children love you and..."

Sofia cuts him by placing a kiss on his cheek. "I love them too. I love you. I said it because of the angst. I admit you it's not always easy, mostly at the begining, for everything : when you broke up, when you met Minttu, when you marry her, when Robin and then Rianna are born... But I understood, understood that you were happy and that no matters this family's changes, that she is different, that's my family, with one and a half mom, one brother and one sister, and an amazing father. No matters what happens, you will forever be my daddy. Rakastan sinua Isä. "

"You are amazing. I'm so proud of you Sofia. I love you, forever."

"Forever." She repeats, as everytimes he went to a race.

They end sleeping together, as when Sofia was young. When Minttu gives a look inside the room a few moment later she smiles before silently going to her room. And when, a few hours later Kimi comes join her after kissing and tucking in his three children, one word is engraved in his head : perhe, family.