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Picture of ruel .

6 April 2020

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Chapter 3

Spencer POV 

Today I wake up early by my usual time because I have to finish my art work by tomorrow .

As I walk through the school hall  to my friends. my eyes land on ruel who was talking to Alan in a corner  looking all  happy . 

I don't know why it's hurts .

I can't forget what happen yesterday when Alan come to my appartment  .All happy   . I was about to tell her that I think I should give a chance to ruel but than she said  . " She likes ruel and he want to take her out on a date " . I don't know why I feel shocked  and ........hurt . Its not like I am not happy for her .   I am  happy for her after all I was the one who suggest  him to take her out . But I was not sure that he will really take her on a date .  

I don't know how I feel any more .

I was taken out of my thought  when Shabnam said " where are you looking ?" I didn't said anything . So she just follow my glance and then she said " ohhh Alan and ruel they are cute a didn't they by the way now they are officiall "  I don't know why but my heart break .  "Ohhh " that all I said . I don't know why I feel like this . we were never a thing we just spend a day together not even a day just a ride in which he try to kiss me and I rejecte him  . 

Then why am I feeling like this . Ruel saw me staring at them he smirked  and   the was heart breaking  scean happen  he kissed Alan in front of me .   My heart break in million pieces . I can't see this any more . So I just run  . To Restroom   where  I cry I don't know why am I  feeling like he is not mine he was never mine . Come on Spencer you are strong you can't cry over a boy  like this . I thought

Last time I cry was when my boyfriend broke up with me because I refused to kiss him . so he just broke up .  That day I dicided that I will never fall for any one ever again but here I am crying like  a  baby .

So I just stand and wash my face and left for my first class  . I was late but not too late I decided I will be happy for Alan and forget about that ruel and never I repeat never think about him again .

After all it was my fault that I rejecte him but what can I do
now  .  But what ever I will be happy for her she is my best  friend and I can't do this to her .  if they both are happy together then I will never come between them .

The day when on like every other day  . As I promised I didn't think about him at all but when in Lunch time Alan come to me and said they are officially together . I was taken back to my thoughts but reply " I am happy for you  " and  I faked  a smile  but she catch me  .

She sad "  what happen?   are you ok? you don't look happy something happen "

I look at ruel and then back at Alan " no nothing just exhausted but I am happy for you  . Very happy " just as I said that ruel look other side and left .

I was sitting in my last class right now  then the bell ring . I lefted school building and walk towards my car as I walked in the parking I saw  Alan and ruel making out in front my my car . I clear my throat and said " I have to go home and send the art work to art gallery.  so  can you guys be side " looking down like it was the most interesting thing in the world  to see .  Its just I don't wanted to see them .

I didn't wait for there reply and want to my car and left for my appartment .

As I arrived at my appartment  I started doing my work like anything which can keep me busy not thinking about anything .

As I watch time it was already 7: 00 clock so  I dicided to order a pizza .  Its delivered after 10 minutes .  I ate my pizza and painted some  of my new art then took a shower and when to my room .

I was looking at my old I painting  . Like how I want to bad drawing to this perfect drawing . I love drawing so I never Stop practicing and here  I am as a perfect artist .  Painting helps me to think I am worth something so that's why I always try my best when I draw something .

It was already 10:00 pm so just drift to sleep not thinking about anything else

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