Chapter 1:
I had just arrived at the dorm rooms for my second year in Tetris University For Musical Arts, I threw my bag on the other side of the room and dragged my suitcase along with me. I hate it when we have to switch our dorms! I mean I’ve already been here from last year, so I could’ve just stayed in my old one, but no! I look out the window, at the beautiful view, with a balcony, which I step out on.
I take out my pack of cigarettes and light one up, shoving the rest of the pack back into my pocket along side the lighter. I take a long drag, inhale the poison which was spreading in my lungs, then exhaling, letting the venom leave my lungs only for a few seconds, before repeating my daily process. I don’t love smoking and I’ve tried to quit, but it helps me deal with all the stress and the hurtful past I’ve had, making me believe I matter.
I heard the door squeak open and then it shutting, I step on my cigarette with my foot and smash it with the heel turning around and coming to terms with dark brown eyes.
“You must be my roommate?’’ I ask and he nods, he’s the shy type now eh?
‘’I’m Zayn, Zayn Malik. And you are?’’ I ask, I haven’t seen him around, he must be new. I extend my arm for him to take, which he takes momentarily.
“Josh, Josh Devine.’’ He smiles at me. He has brown hair, plump lips, a cute nose and rosy cheeks... But he didn’t have the blue eyes – No I cannot think about him, I cannot think about the past, I have to let go, after all he did, I have to hate him, I have to hate them all. They betrayed me, I thought they were my best friends, but they weren’t.
‘’Hello? Anybody in there?’’ I snapped back into reality and saw Josh snapping his fingers in front of me.
‘’Oh, yeah... Sorry ‘bout that.’’ I shrug and he plops himself onto his side of the bed, which is near to the door, and mine is on the complete other side.
‘’So you’re new, yeah?’’
“Yeah, first year here, you?’’ He asks plugging his phone in, so that it can charge.
“Second, I’ve been here since I was eighteen... Like how, I mean, your talent is...?’’ I don’t exactly know how to ask him properly, I mean... I’m not really a people person after the ‘incident’ but that doesn’t mean I have to be mean, I don’t even know him, I have no right to judge him before I even get to know him.
‘’I play the drums and piano... And I guess in my studying, I’m above average.’’ He just shrugs it off. ‘’You?’’ He looks up at me and I collapse into the soft bed.
“I sing, my special topic is English... Oh and I play piano too! FINALLY SHE TEXTS ME BACK!!’ I get up and start jumping around with my phone in my hand. He’s just looking at me, his hand over his lips.
‘’Do I have something on my face?’’ I ask blinking rapidly.
“N-No, you just get so happy!’’ My smile fades away... I remember when I hated smiling, or even the sound of laughing for a certain period time of time. I remember when I didn’t want to hear my heartbeat, or feel my skin, or even wanted to look in the mirror. I have come across so much, it took me so long to get over what happened, and I still hate myself, some days more than others.
‘’Yeah, I’m just a happy person.’’ Well I used to be happy... So happy, but now, I try not to expect so much of life, but that’s the rollercoaster of life, I should smile because it counts, right?
‘’Well, I’m going to go meet up with my friends, want to tag along?’’ I ask, kindly.
“Yeah, why not?’’ I nod and he follows me out the doors. We make our way to the campus and there I see bleach blonde hair in a messy bun snickering with a girl with long brown hair, and dark, tanned skin with a few blonde strands in her hair.
‘’Dani! PearBear!’’ I yell at them and they turn around making there way to me.
“ZAYN, BABE!’’ I hear Danielle’s soft voice and I smile at her kissing her cheek.
“We were waiting for you.’’ Perrie wraps me in a hug. These two girls, are the only two people other than my family who know I’m gay. Yeah, yeah I’m gay, okay? That’s one of the reason I lost the four people that I thought cared for me. I hate them now, but I have to keep reminding myself that once they cared and that maybe I did deserve what happened to me... So thats why I don’t tell people who I really am, meaning my sexuality. All they’re going to do is just judge me.
Those four boys that I thought I could always trust, those four boys I thought would always be in my life, they left. Well, they didn’t just leave, they took my everything with them. They took Niall. I always dreamed that maybe one day we would get together but of course reality had to strike, I can’t live my life like a fairytale forever.
I’m just glad that I am where I am now, at one of the best music schools in the world, following my dreams. At first it sucked, having my so called best friends turn against me, make me their punching bag but I got out of there. I’m lucky my family accepted me, they understood and they didn’t judge me.
So did Perrie and Danielle, they love me just the same. In fact Danielle even is pretending to date me so I don’t get bullied. Only a true friend would do something like that.
I was snapped out of my thoughts by Dani shaking my shoulders. “ZAYN!”
“Sorry Dani, I guess I’m just out of it today” I seriously don’t know what’s wrong with me today. I’m so zoned out. I keep on thinking about the boys. I need to stop doing that. They hurt me. The betrayed me. Things will never go back to the way they once were.
Me, Josh, Dani and Perrie decided we were going to go off campus to a little family restaurant we found last year when we were wandering around town. We walked together, talking about how our summers had been and occasionally cracking a few jokes and laughing.
Once we arrived at the restaurant we seated ourselves and a young looking waitress brought us some menus.
“Hi, my name is Jackie and I’ll be your waitress this evening. Can I get you anything to drink as a start?”
“I’ll have a coke please,” Josh said.
“I’m good with coke too please,” I said.
“Me too!” Dani and Perrie said at the same time and giggled, causing us all to smile and laugh a little.
“Great, that will be four cokes. I’ll be back with those shortly and to take your meal orders,” Jackie smiled at us and walked into the kitchen.
We all looked through our menus for a bit until Jackie came back carrying a tray of drinks.
“Here you guys go...Now what can I get you guys to eat?” She spoke as she put all our drinks down and took out her notepad and pen.
“I’ll have the country style burger platter with fries please” Perrie said.
“I’ll have the fish and chips please,” Dani stated.
“Same here,” Josh replied.
“And I’ll have the chicken burger platter with extra fries and some gravy please.” I asked.
Jackie nodded and walked back to the kitchen again. We talked about random stuff, mostly just catching up and getting to know Josh a bit better. Shortly after Jackie brought us out our food which we quickly devoured and paid for then walked back to campus.
We said our goodbyes to each other and walked back to our dorms. Me and Josh pretty much went straight to sleep after unpacking a few more things and getting settled in.
Tomorrow is a new day. A new school year. Hopefully this year, goes as well as last year did.
AUTHORS NOTE:
HEY, ok, o the first part of this chapter was Zeist and the second part was me so ya..hope you guys liked it and SOOO sorry for not updating earlier..I feel very bad for that -___- anyways...vote/comment/fan
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~ Vanessa
