A 6th grades crush (based on a true story)

9/27/19

  Many years passed by, Not a single sign of each other anywhere. Moving on in life although having that person in the back of the head always wondering where he could be and how he is doing now.  

 I walked into a big building seeing him standing there. I didn't know what to say or believe. I acted as if I forgot and I didn't know him. I did what I had to do to make sure I got done with the things I had to do. I walked outside and there he stood with his friends. He stared at me and right at that moment when our eyes met, It was the first snow fall of the year. It snowed hard, within seconds there was at least 2 inches of snow on the floor. One of my friends came out of the building chasing after me. "Cassadie!! WATCH OUT!!" A big snowball hit me from behind. I turned and looked towards the direction it came from and as expected, it was from Johnathan. I knew it was my chance to get him back so I through a snow ball with all my force and it hit his neck. Surprisingly. Then that started a whole snow ball fight and it was crazy. The weird part was that he just kept aiming towards me and me only. what was he trying to do? Get attention? My attention? Wow I felt special!! After all, we all headed inside to get cleaned up. Obviously he followed me inside, and kept his eyes on me. I still thought it was weird because someone like him would never have or gain feelings for me. He is so stubborn. After cleaning up, we went to the little lunch room to drink something warm and warm up from the cold that was still in us. He sat down next to me without a word. I was so confused at that moment. I turned and looked at him but he was gone! Soon a black cat came running towards me, Obviously I got scared and flinched. It jumped on me and looked me right in the eyes. It looked so familiar. His eyes shined like the moon in the middle of the night, I couldn't help but stare. I also don't like cats but for some reason this one was kinda different. It had a weird vibe to it. It grabbed my neck then transformed in Johnathan. Now that is the definition of weird! We were still looking into each others eyes, then he said my name in a really soft tone as if he was trying to hypnotize me. "I have been waiting for you for such a long time now Cassadie" said Johnathan. My dad came into the room and said, "Come on it's time to head home, Its getting late. Get your stuff." I looked at Johnathan and he looked so sad... I gave him a hug without words then pushed away. He couldn't help but hug me again. "I'm willing to wait. We will meet again, I promise.." said Johnathan. Deep down I fell for him again. We made a promise then I left, I don't make promises I know I can't keep. *Gasp* "What the hell was that?! What? that was so out of no where..I never dreamed about him before...."

 September 27 2019, The day before my birthday. I had great friends to go out with and a good relationship with everyone. Lost many people during my journey of life and I have never given up on myself. Always held my head up high and believed there would be a better and brighter day. Finally turning 17 this year and now focusing on my future and goals. Learning how to let go of the past. That day I decided to go out and watch a movie with one of my great friends named Lucian. We went out to watch a new movie named "IT Chapter 2." Everyone said that the movie was scary and it would make you have nightmares. For me, It just didn't happen...because something unexpected happen that night. 

 After the movies, My family has invited Lucian and I to go to Top Golf for my uncles birthday party. Of course we went!! It was 9 pm at night and the colors of Top Golf lit the sky with it's beautiful lights. It was my first time going to that place. I was a person who never enjoyed playing golf. Never once in my life I hit a golf ball before, I tried at least. As I entered into the place, It was huge!! I followed my brother downstairs to where the party was going on. As I walked down and made it to the bottom of the steps, I walked past someone who gave me a really weird vibe, which made me turn around and look. He walked pass me without looking back. He looked so similar to someone I used to know. The guy reminded me of someone I held close to my heart once. My heart started to bump and my face started to burn up, I was so confused and curious. My brother came to me in excitement and said, " The guy that just walked past you looked just like Johnathan Xiong," I stood there frozen thinking for a good minute about how I felt when I heard those words come out of my brothers mouth. "It couldn't be, there is no way..." I constantly repeated in my head. "Are you okay Cassadie?" said Lucian, "I'm okay."

 I kept looking around to find him. He was nowhere to be found, which made me assume that my brother was just seeing things and I just had a weird vibe when I came in because I entered a unfamiliar place. I continued playing pool with Lucian. That weird vibe came again, I looked up and there he was...walking towards the door. I couldn't believe my eyes that trailed after him. My heart started racing and my face started to burn up, I couldn't control my smile anymore. I looked at Lucian and grabbed him quickly so he could see the man I was longing for, for so long. Lucian was so surprised as I was. I jumped and ran over to my mom and said, " OH MY GOD MOM! IT'S HIM!!! IT'S JOHNATHAN XIONG!!!!" She asked where and I couldn't help but point at him. She got right off of her seat and ran towards the door and screamed his name. I stood there with Lucian shooked to my core when she said, "Johnathan!! Johnathan, my daughter knows you. Cassadie, her name is Cassadie." 

 He walked into the room with a big smile as he walked towards me. I stood there speechless without any words. In my head I was thinking, "How is this possible? How in the world? "I must be dreaming. Is this really happening to me right now? Wake up Cass!! You're in DANGER!!!!!" He walked towards me and said, "You're Cassadie right?" with his smile still on his face. He looked so cute and handsome. I answered him and within a blink of an eye I was in between his arms. We finally pushed away and he asked me how I was doing, what school I went to and  what grade I was in as if he was interested. We had a tiny catch up chat and I felt like that was enough. Never once in my life I thought a day like this was gonna ever happen to me. It felt like a dream I just couldn't get out of. Then I had a flashback about the dream I had about him. I asked him why he was there and he said, "I work here. I also have to go soon so I think I will talk to you later, keep in contact alright" He smirked at me then waved. I waved back and just couldn't believe what I just witnessed... His smirk. I was so messed up for the rest of the night and I just couldn't stop smiling. Lucian low key thought I was crazy in the head. I went to my uncle and decided to try and hit a golf ball, I gabbed a golf stick that was perfect for my size. "Hit the ball hard, think about your crush and just hit it!" Said my uncle. I thought about him right away and hit the ball. It flew so far I lost it in the darkness. Everyone was so shocked. That was my first time, I was also shocked myself! Later on we took Lucian home then head home too, My cheek bones hurt so much but it was so hard to stop smile and dancing around the house. I even fell asleep smiling. I'm crazy. 

 September 28 2019, Finally 17 years old and I actually really regret not getting a single picture with him. Who knows when we will see each other again. later on that day I did my cake and the wish I made was so weird, It just came out without me actually wishing for it. The wish was for him, Johnathan. I know I'm weird but for some reason I couldn't control it. The next day I decided to text Johnathan, I became bold and thought that it was about time to confess to him after all these years. I waited and waited for him to reply but no comment. The next day I woke up and he texted back. He said that he knew that I had feelings for him for awhile now, He didn't exactly reject me though. At least I don't think. I asked him to be friends once again and this time it felt good because he agreed without actually making it awkward. I feel like friendship is better than being in a relationship because relationships can go down hill. Not saying that friendships don't either but relationships just have a higher chance. 

A couple days later I noticed that we were not friends on social media anymore. I knew right away why that was the reason. I was totally prepared for that moment and now it doesn't hurt me anymore. I don't feel that attachment anymore and although I still think about him from time to time, at least I did what I had to do for myself which was to be fair to my feelings. I was happy I confessed, I had no regrets at all and I finally feel like I'm ready to let go of him and move on. 

A couple months later I got into a relationship with a different Jonathan. Maybe wishing for Johnathan wasn't all that bad that birthday. I feel like I made a good choice. I finally found happiness and love. I just hope he is well and doing fine in life. He is now a normal human being to me. I don't think that will ever change again. My journey is done here.