Stuck in the shadows

Starving: ghania's point of view

We've been meeting every night for 2 weeks now and the sex... the connection... the attention I get for him is AMAZING. I think I'm in love. But I can't be weak, I can't show how I feel because if I do he might not want me anymore. So I leave every night and don't say a single word to him anymore.
    Tonight he seems distant, when we were finished he said "I-I don't think we should see each other anymore. I want a relationship with you but obviously all you want is sex... I know I sound like a bitch for saying this but I want more than sex but you won't give it to me"  I wanted to tell him how I felt but I can't show weakness so I said " fine, I can't force you do anything so have a nice life I guess" i away so fast with tear bubbling down my face a sadness in my heart but nobody will EVER see that part of me.
    It's been two weeks without jack and I've became eager for sex. So I thought fuck it I don't need him, I'll find somebody less problematic. I saw Justin he was tall very built boy for 15 and he made butterflies appear in my stomach. at the campfire I decided when no one was looking I would tell him to me me by the lake. He did, and the sex was terrible to the point I faked an orgasm just so I can go back to my cabin.
    The next day I hear whispers and feel like every one is staring at me. My friend Alicia wants to talk to me for some reason so I follow. She looks me in the eyes and asks "when were you gonna tell me you had a boyfriend and you had sex " my eye grow big as I say "what are you talking about" she looks at me and says "you and Justin he's been telling everybody and think you need to talk to him because I heard a rumor that there's a video" my heart starts to race as my eyes filled with tears. I don't even say anything to Alicia I just run to find Justin.
    As soon a we make eye contact he run I follow my heart racing my body shaking and I finally catch up to him. I yell "why are you telling everyone I'm your girl friend" he smile nervous and says "because you are" I whisper angrily "and what is I hear about a video" he starts to back up and says "listen babe don't be mad... but I might have recorded it for only me to see you know how it is. And someone stole my phone and showed some people" my face burning as I say "your phone is in your mother fucking hand" he chuckles nervously and says "oh how'd it get here" I ball my hand up and to punch him and when I start to swing on him jack grabs my wrist HARD and says "we need to talk" this can't end good...