Today when the doctors come in they try to talk to me. None of it makes sense so I don't answer anything. They say my names Oli. I don't believe them because Ricky calls me Joel.
My parents come to visit me after the doctor leaves. My mom is usually crying,although I don't know why. Maybe she hates me... I don't know.
"Look Ricky is here," I tell them. He is tall. When he sits beside me he puts his hand on my throat.Sometimes I forget how to breath when Ricky is here.
My dad calls the nurse when I forget. He looks scared. The nurse comes in and trys to teach me but only Ricky can teach me. When Ricky moves his hand he teaches me again. He smiles really big when I look at him.
"I love you," Ricky says laughing "but I have to leave again." He likes to laugh.
After that he's gone.
