Tony Lopez

chapter 18 ;)

"tony, what the hell are you talking about?" as i said as soon as i realised that this was serious and that he had done something. he let go of me and swam over the sandy part beside the dock and got out of the water. i followed him out of the water as he walked to put his clothes back on. "are you seriously not even going to say anything?" i questioned him now getting furious. "i don't know how to tell you this" he said as he stopped in his tracks and turned around now facing me from 2 metres away. his face was just pure regret and disappointment. "tony i'm starting to worry what is it?" i said as i stood there looking at him waiting for an answer. "you know about a month or 2 ago when that Luke from the football team threw a huge party" he said. "yea, what about it?" i asked again now getting concerned because i had heard that tony had went to it...most of the school did, it was one of the biggest parties of the year. "well, i was there and molly (the popular girl) was making out with some random guy and i was so angry so i went outside to let off some steam where the garden was and lea was there.." he began to say. "we talked about you and us and her and we started to talk about deep stuff and we could relate to eachother and the next thing i knew we were kissing and i-,". "stop" i said as soon as everything processed in my head. "y/n i didn't know what i was doing i was drunk" he said as he started to come closer to me, he had tears in his eyes. "get the hell away from me" i said as i held out my hand to stop him from getting closer. I felt defeated.. like i had lost a battle, my shoulders were slumped, the air felt heavy, everything felt like it was pushing down on me and i was weak, it was unbearable. what was weird about it was i didn't care, about the fact that he slept with my ex best friend... i just wanted everything to stop. there was an unbearable silence standing between us. the was desperation in his eyes, he searched my face for a answer for anything as to what i was thinking. my heart never stopped hurting and i came to peace with that. no tears came to my eyes, i had none left, i thought. i left his eyes and turned around and started to walk, i heard tony's shouting from a distance but the dense forest soon drowned out his distant voice. i walked past his car and got into mine. i drove and didn't stop. i got to the edge of town. i could just leave, i said to myself.... i can never come back, i wouldn't have to deal with anyone or anything. the plan sounded sweet and bitter, i would have to leave my family....but i could start over again......... no. i'm not going to be a coward anymore, i'm not going to run away from all my problems because that's not going to solve shit. i'm going to face them head on. tony is an asshole but he was my best friend and the first love of my life, it would be unfair to throw that all away...we both made stupid mistakes... god we are still teenagers..still trying to live our lives, why are we acting like this?!
i got back into my car and sped down the road back home. it was Wednesday today which meant there's was school tomorrow which meant this was my chance to sort my shit out. i pulled up onto my drive and opened the door... and walked into the kitchen. "we're on earth have you been!!" my mom shouted as she sat at the table looking at me. "i was just out" i said. "that's it?" she asked. "that's all your going to say?" she continued.i stood there looking at her unable to explain why i was so late home. "just go to your room" she ordered to me and she pointed upstairs. "okay i'm sorry" i said shocked to see her like this. i ran up stairs and jumped into my bed, i got my laptop put on Netflix and watched a movie until i fell asleep. i tried my best to keep my mind off things that night, it was hard but i focused on the good things instead of the bad things for a change. my alarm went off the next morning and i shot up out of bed, did my makeup, straightened my hair and put on this outfit:

i got my bag and everything else i needed, went downstairs said goodbye to everyone and jumped into my car and headed off down the road towards school. i didn't worry about anything just the fact that i had to get to school and see tony to sort everything out.

hey everyone! i hope your all doing good and are staying safe x
i'm so sorry for the late update i was sick for a while and didn't have the energy to do absolutely anything but i'm okay now and with a new chapter!!!
everyone was waiting on this so i hoped you all enjoy it x
unfortunately i think the next chapter will be the finale of this series so a big massive thank you to everyone who has read it and have given feedback, it so lovely to talk to all of u
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