Into My Mind

~School~

Gets out of the shower not looking in the mirror. Gets dressed in a black shirt and black pants with a black hoodie then puts hair in a hair-tie. My curly brown hair deciding it won't stand for they way I want it to look so I have to straighten it. Puts it back in a low pony-tail messing with my bangs while sighing before going to pack my bag for school, things I don't need for school coloring sheets, notebooks for rants or stories, markers, pencil's and blank note books. Not forgetting my phone and earbuds to ignore the pervs, dicks, and bitches on my bus.

Gets to the bus into my seat where my ex who tried to rape me starts talking to me and pulls an earbud out "What do you want Caden."  I always sound meaner then I mean, I'm not always like that to him I just- I'm not a morning person my family doesn't make it any better. "Whacha listening to?" He ALWAYS asks that, I don't know why. It's always something depressing mostly IDFC by Blackbear on repeat. I roll my eyes at him he pushes his way into the seat putting the earbud he took from me in his ear. He pulls out his Ds, he dose this on "Special days" as he calls them. He meant his parents didn't notice him sneak it. I rolled my eyes more texting my friend, My best friend, Cecelia. She was so kind to me back then. She still is, I love her (No homo). I laughed at somethings she said. Caden looked at me "Whats so funny?"  I growled at him slightly "None of your business."  Again, I'm just cold in the morning to people I don't really like. 

Once I got to school I crept up on Cece, I always do. I scared  her and laughed sitting beside her seeing, John, Elly, and HER, Allison. Allison ruined my life! She told me to kill myself! She took my friends away!! She made my Best friend Jesessia the happiest girl in the school cut her fucking wrists!!! She wanted to run the school. Allison controlled the school. She controlled the teachers. I rolled my eyes at her, pulling my hood up pushing both my earbuds in laying my head on the table. I sighed heavily I do this every morning unless Allison is absent I look up before cheeking my Amino or Discord, Cece texts me on everything she can! All the time, I like it, I like seeing someone cares about me. I hug her right before the bell rings and we have to get to class.

Math, Gym, Homeroom/iReady, then we had lunch. At lunch we always sat in the same spot, waited 'til 11:11 made our wish then we groaned and giggled knowing at least two of us didn't make a wish. We finished our lunch sat a our other table waiting to see if we had to go outside, had to stay inside, or choose of  course when it came to choosing we stayed inside. It's just what we did, what we wanted to do. After that had to go to more classes.

Eventually we got a new kid. He messed up our routine, I didn't mind that I minded something else. As soon as "Terion" came, Allison never came to school, never lied about me, I didn't mind that either, Almost ALL the girls I know fell for him, he got picked on by the popular kids. He was so different from all of the boys in our school, he hung out with the "depressed" emo kids, Elly, Cece, John and I we were the group everyone avoided. Not him he hung out with us he was friends with us. Elly fell for him so hard she became semi obsessed, telling my I was to close to him, and I couldn't talk or see him anymore. 

Later I ignored her warning, she stopped hanging out with us, Cece had her crush but slowly hated him because of what he did. I wont talk more about it unless she's ok with it. There was only four of us now. Until John slowly stopped hanging out with us to. there was three. Three kids deemed as depressed, alone in the world. The teachers hated us, kids hated us, Cece and I were beat up. My head smashed in lockers, smashed on the floor I had gotten hit. I don't  remember what happened with Cece, all I know is whenever I told what was going on (We have cameras in the halls/caffeteria/outside) they just said they'd look at the cameras, They never would, it got so bad I had a breakdown, I got to sit in a teachers classroom with my notebooks all day.

It was hell whenever I went home, Mom and Jimmi would fight, Wilbur yelled, my siblings would scream at the top of there lungs, I would take my phone in my room and sit there on my couch bed crying trying to text my boyfriend, he responded, he made me feel better, I'd text Cece, she'd help to. My mom would yell at me to come out of my room, I would I'd sit on the couch in the living room, texting on iMessege and on Amino , watching YouTube while waiting for responses.

Alex left me, I got suspended because of Terion, My mom and my whole family got harsher towards me. Through all the hell, Cece stayed, John became my friend again, and I found new love.

(It took me two days to write this, it's all true though)