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cutting...

  "i'm sorry payson but you know how mom feels about my famous life and my family life." payton said getting up to hug me .
    "i know but we were so close and now i never get time with you anymore." 🥺 "just forget it i'm going to my room." i walked out and went to my room. i forgot to mention i had a boyfriend. his names jaxon but we don't talk much about him. payton doesn't even know because mom said not to tell him. he abuses me and rapes me . i was having a panic attack just thinking about him. i started shaking and crying . i walked to bathroom to my counter and opened the top drawer. there it was. my razor, i took it and started to slice my left arm . then my door opens.
    "omg payson. what are you doing." payton looked at me with a worried look.
    "you can't tell mom." i put the razor back in my drawer but payton took it out and threw it away. little did he know i have a bunch more.
    "why are you cutting." payton said
    "you don't even know half of it." i said.
     "than talk to me." he said .
     "no now leave, i want to be alone." i said now getting angry. i also have anger issues and anxiety problems. he left and i just laid down. jaxon texted me he was on the way over so i walked over to payton's room. "i got a friend coming over so either stay in your room or leave ."
    "i'll leave don't want anyone seeing me." payton said walking down the stairs but just as he reached the bottom jaxon opened the door. [fuck fuck fuck] . he looked at payton and me and i could see the anger in his eyes.
    "payson who's this." he asked sounding nice but i knew what was gonna happen. i looked at payton then back at jaxon and payton looked up at me the at jaxon.
    "payson who's that?" he asked. we'll shit.
    "umm he's my boyfriend." i said .
    "he's your what! payson wtf" payton was now getting angry.
    "we're you cheating on me with this bitch?" jaxon asked. me and payton looked at each other for a second then laughed. "what's funny you slut." my mood completely changed.
    "what'd you just call my sister?"oh gosh payton please don't .
    "payton it's fine he was just joking right babe." i said giving jaxon a look.
    "haha ofc baby. we play around like that don't we you whore." he was smiling .
     "yes we do faggot." then we were laughing . "now if you'll excuse us payton were going to my room." jaxon followed me and i knew i was gonna get raped again. we walked in and he immediately shut my door and locked it. he pushed against the wall and started kissing my neck . i knew if he pushed him away he'd make it worse so i just stood there. he pushed me on my bed and started taking off me clothes. i wasn't sure if payton left but i screamed. "please don't jaxon. i'm sorry" he didn't stop and he took off his clothes and slammed into me. the door bust down and jaxon was pulled off me. i pulled the covers over me and cried loudly.
    "payson shhh it's okay he's not here anymore. i have a friend over you need to be quiet please." i knew it was payton. he left and i walked into the bathroom to take a shower and i got another razor and took some of my anxiety pills. i downed them and started cutting till i saw black spots everywhere. then i was out .
             payton's pov.
   i left payson room and heard her turn on the shower . i should've killed him. i had my friend anthony over and he asked who was screaming i said probably the neighbors and he believed me . i walked back to my room where he was and he was looking at pictures to f me and payson. she looked so happy i miss my sister being happy. it hurts me and i thought maybe i should check on her so i went to her room and the shower was still on? she normally doesn't take long showers so i knocked on the door and there was no answer so i opened the door and saw her laying there unconscious.