Numb:(adj.) deprived of the power of sensation.
I feel like I'm trapped in the dark but I don't want to get out.
I feel drowned in tears but I haven't cried at all.
Most of all I feel numb, as if..........what do you mean?
Explain?
Very well.
It's like having an old band aid on a new cut. It would not be much help but it's all you have. You could take the bandage and find a new way to heal but you don't. You remove it and let the cut bleed. You know that you're hurt badly but you feel no pain.
I can't feel my own pain. I'm sad and depressed like everyone else. But I have a new strength. The words of others may strike through me and pull at my heart but now my heart refuses to listen and I am hollow inside so I have nothing left to strike.
Now I can't tell if I'm happy or sad. I feel nothing, I don't hate it or like it.
It's a time like this that I miss my fantasies. My world full of wonderful people who told me about the amazing adventures they had.
Everything was always so out of the box and nothing made sense. I was happy. My very own wonderland.
Until the monsters came and then she lied to me.
After that they locked me away in a loony ben until father came to get me.
Now I sit in the corner and take my pills that makes the nightmares go away. In a dark room, alone.
