𝚆𝚑𝚘 𝙳𝚘 𝙸 𝙲𝚑𝚘𝚘𝚜𝚎? (Discontinued)

Twelve

                                  I fucked up
Jazz's Pov

I woke up in a sad kinda mood today. I had to drag myself out of bed just to shower. While in there I played Dru Hill~ Beauty. When I got out I got dressed in something real simple.

It's been a week since my last update and all you guys missed is that Chase is back from visiting his mother, I've been helping my dad at the company and hanging out with him in my free time although he's not happy with my words and decisions, I've fucked up big time with Dre & I avoid her sometimes because I don't know what to say to her. Even if I didn't avoid her she doesn't even look my way.

I made a few new friends and rn me and Makaila are going out to eat.

I grabbed my things and got in my car and drove off to olive garden. I pulled up shorty and got out once I saw Makaila walking towards my car. Makaila & I have been getting closer but she seems to always run off to some mystery job. I don't like it especially since I found Molly, cocaine, and some other shit in her bag while she was sleep last night. No, I didn't snoop I trust her and she's never done a drug in her life besides weed but that's really a natural plant. I had to pee and then got hungry so I went downstairs to get food. That's when I tripped on her bag and the shit fell out. Idk if she's selling or using but either way I can't be involved with her on a serious level if she's doing either.

We went in and got seated. We stayed quiet so ig she has nothing to say or she noticed the dugs all over the floor and thinks I was going through her stuff. The waitress came and was flirting with Makaila and she just smiled and started flirting back. I started getting angry but fuck it she single. When the girl slipped Makaila her number while on her lap after I said she was with me and she needed to move off I just decided to get up and walk out. If this the shit she finna entertain I don't have the time for it. I got in my car and left for the tattoo shop. Not even gone stress this shit it's whatever.

I went in and saw leelee on a stud so I just ignored it and went to Chase's office door. I swear if this nigga on some shit too I'm shooting this bitch up. I took a deep breath to calm myself and went in surprisingly he was on his couch sleep. Poor bsf must've been working to get his mind off something.  I quietly put my things down, took off my shoes and laid on top of him. He just wrapped his arms around me.

I fell asleep and when we woke me up it was time for him to close up shop. I got up and so did he then I put my shoes on, grabbed my things and hugged him. "I'll see you later imma go home" I told him before leaving and he just hugged me telling me to be safe. I walked out and got in my car. One I was fully awake I drove to my house and went in.

I went upstairs and took a shower to relax my mind bc on the drive here I was worried about what will happen when I talk to Dre tomorrow. I hope she listens and understands. I hope we can start fresh and she doesn't tell me she doesn't want to. The conversation could go either way and honestly i'm ready to get it over with.

After clearing my thoughts I got out the shower and got dressed sitting on the couch watching some cartoon on Disney. I would lay in bed but I don't want to fall asleep just yet.

I just laid and stared at my tv thinking of all those things would or could happen. Dre might not want me, Makaila might be selling drugs, Chase might move on, Makaila might not be good for me. No matter what I guess I'll have to roll with the punches and make the best of things.

I got up and fixed a bowl of cereal then ate it in the kitchen. Once I was done I washed my dish and went to my room. I laid in bed and closed my eyes. Soon I drifted off dreaming of the days and events to come.

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It's the next day and I got up doing my hygiene and left the house. I listened to Ready or Not by Fugees. Kinda relates to what I plan to do. Fine Dre and take things slowly if she allows me.

I stopped at starbucks and got a cold vanilla bean frappuccino. I got Dre one and some cake pops cause I remember her saying she liked those. I drank my frap on the way there and went inside aft giving myself a pep talk.

I went to my dad's office but he wasn't there. "Aye lani do you know where Dre is?" I asked my dad's secretary. "She's in hair and makeup" lani answered pointing me in the correct direction. I went where she pointed and went in. "I know baby we can go out tonight but I have a shoot soon" Dre said into her phone. She laughed at whatever the other person said then looked up. "Did your dad need anything?" she asked, "nah I wanted to talk but never mind" I said with a slight smile. I closed the door and I walked away.

She cane out after me. "Jazz what did you want to talk about?" she asked looking at the sad expression on my face. "it's nothing, here's your drink and cake pops. I know you like them" I said handing her the things and leaving before she could stop me again.

I threw my drink away and got in my car leaving. I was too late..

I went home to be met with Makaila on my door step. I got out and went up to her. She stood up and cleared her throat. "I'm sorry about what happened at the restaurant and ik you saw the things in my bag. I didn't take the girl's number & the only reason I sell is because my bsf is caught up in a gang and once we sell everything they gave us she's out. I promise you it's not a full time thing. As soon as she's out I won't touch another drug baby." she explained to me. "you do you." is all i could get out so i just walked in my house and locked the door so she wouldn't follow.I'm hurt and I just need space.

I sat on my couch and at first I cried then I got up and took my clothes off laying down to cry some more.

I was 3 minutes into my second pout session when I heard a knock on my door. I ignored it but they kept knocking. I got up and went upstairs to my room laying in my bed. I heard the knocking continue so I got up again washing my face so it's not noticeable I was crying. I threw on my robe and before I even got downstairs the knocking went away. I went back upstairs and I heard my door unlock. I grabbed my gun and slowly walked downstairs putting it up pointing towards my door. "Jazzmine get that damn gun out my face" my dad said.

"If I wanted company I would've opened my door. Why you even here?" I asked putting my gun in the back of my boxer waistband. "Dre was outside knocking when I came outside y'all need to talk. Bye!" my dad said leaving before I could get mad. I looked at Dre who was just standing in my living room looking at me. "What?!" I bucked at her. She was starring for too damn long.

"What were you going to say when you came in the room earlier?" she asked. "Told you nothing. Just brought you some shit to get us on decent terms" I lied. "Jazz tell me the truth.. do you want me or did you mean what you said in your dad's office?" Dre asked. "Don't matter. I heard you on the phone." I told her shrugging.

"The secretary told me you were coming so I pretended" Dre admitted, with that I wanted to smile but I couldn't show any emotion or she'd know I wanted her. Plus she might be lying. "Whatever you say Andrea" I said using her government. "Jazzmine I'm telling the truth now I want you to do the same" she said getting closer to me. Soon she was only inches away from me.

I pulled her face closer and kissed her. After a moment she kissed back and it lasted a while before I pulled away. "That should answer your questions" I said walking into the kitchen. "Let me take you out" Dre said "alr hmu with the details I'm finna eat and go to sleep" I told her. "Okay" she said smiling and she left. I fixed a turkey sandwich and ate it before I took a nap.

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Dre+Jazz😌