Ruling the black fire

One

"Mama!" Bati ko nang maka pasok na ako "Andito napo ako" pumunta ako ky mama para yakapin at halikan siya sa pisnge.

"How's my daughter?" Malambing na sabi ni mama.

"Pagod na pagod po, sobrang busy na kasi, malapit na yung graduation ma" I said and smile at her.

"And I am very proud of you anak. Very." She said with a proud eyes. My mom's really emotional.

"Ma susuklian kona po lahat ng pag hihirap niyo ma, you'll be a madam soon." I said and laugh and she laughed with me.

"Baliw, hindi naman na kailangan yun anak, ang importante ay makapag tapos ka, thank you anak, thank you for being such a good daughter." Halus mangiyak-ngiyak na siya, natawa naman ako.

I am very blessed to have a mom like her, hindi man kami sobrang yaman but still, she's doing her best to give me a happy and sufficient life.

"Mama naman, drama talaga e. I love you so much ma." I said and hugged her.

Nang bumitaw na kami sa yakap ay agad na akong nag bihis para maka kain na ng hapunan.

"So how are you and Stephen?" She asked while we're eating.

"We're good naman ma, hindi na rin nga kami masyadong nag uusap ngayun dahil busy kaming pareho pero nag kikita naman kami minsan" I answered and continue eating

Stephen is my 3-year boyfriend pero lately parang naging cold siya, I don't know if it's just me or talagang may nag bago, bahala na, marami pa akong dapat unahin.

Pag ka tapos naming kumain ay agad na kaming nag ligpit at nag paalam na ako ky mama na aakyat na para mag pahinga.

This is a very tiring day.

I open my book first and started to study in advance. Pag katapos ay agad na akong nahiga, kinuha ko ang cellphone ko sa study table para tawagan ang boyfriend ko.

Pag ka tapos nang ilang ring ay sinagot niya na.

"Yes babe?" He answered, sounding like he just wake up.

"A-anong babe? Love? Sinong babe?" As far as I remember, love was our endearment. Not babe. He was silent for a couple of minutes.

"Y-you, you know I love to call you in all different ways, you're my love, babe, baby and all." His answer made me smile, hindi ko dapat siya pinag dududahan, he was my boyfriend for years, we've been through ups and downs, he was with me at my worst and I know he loves me.

"Aw that's so sweet of you love, I love you." I said.

"I-I love you too. Why'd you call?" His question made me over think again, why? Am I not allowed to call my boyfriend any more?

"N-nothing. I just missed you, don't you?" We've been busy for so long that we haven't spend quality time for each other anymore

"Ofcourse I do but I just don't want you to sleep late. I don't want you tired" oh, he's just concerned of me. Come on Brina, stop doubting! I felt really guilty for thinking ill of him, I don't know why but my instincts are telling me not to trust him!

"Oh. Ahm... Then let's sleep, I'm sorry if I've waked you up. Sleep tight love. I love you." I am trusting him, and not my stupid instincts.

"Okay. Good night love. Love you too" Love you? Why does it seems like he's only saying it for convenience? Arrgh! Brina, stop! I had three ex boyfriends before Stephen pero walang nag tagal. I am not good when it comes to relationship, I over think a lot, I get too possessive and I nag a lot, kaya walang nag tatagal sa lalaki saakin, si Stephen lang, siya lang ang kayang umunawa sa ugali ko kaya mahal na mahal ko siya. I'll never loose him, hindi ko na siya pa kakawalan pa, having him in my life is a blessing.