I Love You And I Miss You.

is she really like me?

This is the part 2 of the story, let me say real quick, I MISSSS YOUUUU! WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO SEE ME AGAIN :(
I MISS RIDING WITH YOU, GOING TO TUITION TOGETHER.. NGEEE :(

Everyday all i do is thinkkng about you :")

Okay continue, she wanna be just friend with me. I got friendzone but you know what fuck no, i don't wanna give up on her. This is the first time i felt like i want to have a real relaitionship with someone because she is so perfect for me. The first time i hangout with her got me thinking like i make a copy of myself that night. I cant stop thinking about it. Not long after that i ask her on a date again and she said yes AGAIN!

It got me suprise because maybe she gave me another chance or maybe she likes me too? So we start dating and again and again. Going on a date at mcdonalds and some other restaurant. We get even closer and closer, share our interest about things and stuff, i got to know that she actually a pretty good dancer and she's have been in this competition at Japanese language festival and she got first place on that competition and i feel so proud for her, I don't know why until my second attempt of asking her to be my girlfriend. Well she said yes, she wanna be my girlfriend. I was so happy when she said yes. I haven't been on a relationship for 3 or 4 years and this is the first time i try to get back up. The last thing in my head thinking can this relaitionship become the last one because i have found my soulmate :) .

Things turn out a little different,
Because she after i got to have tight relaitionship with her i got jealous easily but i stay silence just let it go away cause i dont wanna control her too much
It's hurt sometime seeing her laugh with her guy friend. But my friends said that i shouldn't have worried too much about this and trust her as much as i can cause if she does love me she wouldn't do such thing. So i just let it slide. We start to hangout almost everyday and she just dont talk much to me but that's okay because maybe she always like this. I always do the talking sometimes and also yeah she looks so fucking cute went she sneeze, the first time she sneeze infront of me it sound like a kitten, she is even cuter then everrr.

After a few weeks in a relationship we been going on a many dates and like hangouts together, all that couple stuff but that one day we decided to go eat at McDonald's and on our way back my friends invited me to go for a quick badminton game before we head there i saw she texting with her guy 'bestfriend' sending her a love emoji and all that stuff, it's like he's trying to flirting her, that's.. make me jealous a lot and i feel a little hurt cause yeah who doesnt,
But i got a little too mad at her, saying bad stuff at her and i feel bad after that :( and i got scared plus i feel embarrassed and don't know how to apologize to her :'(. But suprisingly we settle it faster thab ever. She apologized to me and i apologize to her as well. After that we go back to normal, just that easy.

   I like her so much. All this time, When im with her i felt happy..so happy I've never been so happy these day but when I'm with her i feel it. It was like i found my true love, like starring at my jodoh infront of me. I must say, i have the most cutest girlfriend im not afraid to show her off. But i still have a little curious about her. She still scared to tell her friends about me, she said her friends dont like me. But who cares about other people words, if you love me for real you're not afraid to show it but it's okay maybe she needs a little bit more time to be ready.
 
   We gonna skip the moment that i break up for a little time with her cause i dont wanna think about it...hahaha