The worst feeling ever?
Not being able to cry. Even if you’re already at your limit. Even if you feel like you’re the loneliest person on Earth. Even if you beg yourself to do so.
I was already dead without needing to die when I met you. That is when I first felt my heart ache, the first time I felt my soul burned and first time that I shed a tear.
Just when I was ready to give up on life, unexpectedly you were there. In the saddest day of my life, I wasn’t alone because you were there.
I was walking blindly in the darkness when you shared you’re light and when you became my light. And for that, I am very thankful.
Days passed, I get to know you better. And the more I learn, the more I fall deeply inlove with you.
You have this aura that screams comfort and joy. The room lights up when you’re around and everywhere is just not the same without you. You’re a fun person to be with and loving you isn’t hard.
But loving you is one thing and telling you is another. I’m afraid that when I tell you how I feel, I’d lose you. You’re just too damn perfect that loving you feels like taboo.
I’ve decided to keep my feelings to myself and just enjoy my time with you, after all, we have all the time in the world to ourselves. Or so I thought...
A lot happened when I met you. We went to college together, we dreamed together, got matching tatoos together, complained about exams together, cried together and we even graduated together.
I got really used to the idea that its the two of us, you and me against the world that I forgot how to live without you. I forgot how to start my day without seeing you’re face.
You left to reach your dreams. Who am I to intrude? I was busy taking my time to tell you how I feel that I now regret losing the chance to do so.
I’m sorry for being coward. I’m sorry for shutting you out of my life for the past years. I’m sorry for destroying our friendship. I’m sorry for being petty and I’m sorry for loving you deeply that it hurts.
I should also apologize for not telling you before you know of this but I don’t regret a bit of my decision. I guess I’m still stubborn huh?
I hope you reached you dreams.
I hope your happy.
I hope you find love.
Beep beep beep “Sir, we need to start your operation now. Your blood pressure is rapidly decreasing if we don’t-“
“It’s fine. If I don’t finish this Caighley would be mad. She hates cliffhangers you see..”
Meeting you is the best thing that happened in my life.
I love you.
Goodbye, Caighley.
Time of death 11:59 pm....
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