CHAPTER 1
MY name is Shelby Fruth and My parents separated when I was two. I lived with my mom till I was nine. Then my mom decided to leave and go see her boyfriend. I had mixed feeling about living with my dad like how is this gonna be. The first mouth I had depression bad I missed my Mom and would cry. It got so bad where I started cutting when I was 12. My mom came back down on the Christmas of that next year. The thing is is that she came down pregnant and had an abortion. She lied and said she had a miss charge my mom thinks that lying is better then telling the truth. Me and My dad don't get along most of the time and sometimes I just wanna go back home. I only have 3 friends that at there for me all the time. Me and Autumn have been friends for 4 years and me and Angel 2 years an me and Riley 2 years. When I would cut I would wear a jacket so they wouldn't be so suspicious. I would tell myself that I didn't care to go to life streams. So many times so many chances. Sometimes I still wish I should have just hit the vain last. I get called fat and slut whore any name you can think of. I wanna give up ALOT . People ask y r u down today and I have to just say oh I don't feel good when really my heart is in pieces and I'm crying inside. I like this one guy Dakota. No one can understand how much he matters to me. He's coming to my school soon and that probably going to be another depression break down because he probably is going to do what all the other boys do and call me names. I act like it doesn't but it does. I go home and just cry sometimes I can't sleep because of the depression. I still have depression problems and I'm still living with my dad. He is a really good father my mother lives in Daytona and I see her like every other 3 weeks.
