Why did u lie to me? You told me that you loved me that night under the starsand you said that we were ment to be. You kissed me like it was your last day to live. You told me that you were sorry for moveing alittle too fast because you never wanted it to end. Our word was forever adn we kissed more time then we could ever count, not careing whatanyone else wuld say or think about it. You were my first real boyfriend. But i guess that i was wrong.One day i told you that i might be leaveing and then u said that , after all that we have been through, we were over. It all happened in a blink of an eye that i didnt have anytime to prosses what was happening. But you didnt even tell me your self.Our two best friends Maggie and Paris hasd to tell me he bad news that had to shadder my life for as long as i could ever think about anything. You use to treat me like i was a littel , fragial piece of glass that you were afraid to let go of because you were scared that i would break. But no,i guess at this point in time, you didnt are if that little piece of glass broke because you didnt careis someone got hurt because you wount be there to comfert or even love then in there desperate time of need.
You must have gotten tierd of wakeing up to the same face ever morning 365 days a year. I addmit that i was foolish. But i was only foolish because i let all of this happen n the order that it did. And becauseI didnt tell yu everything that was going on im my life. Peoplecan pretend to be alright onlyfor so long until they break and loose is and make desisions that they will regret like takeing an over dose to go to sleep and get rid of all the pain or cutting bcause they think that the pain will make them forget all of the hurt and betrail that they felt over the hard times that they had to deal with because of drama. Also many other things but my bigest mistake wa letting you go and not trying to make you stay for as long as possible.I was wrong and with every passing day, every passing second of every passing minuet of evey passing hour ...etc,you were the only thing that was on my mind and you wouldnt leave my brain no matter how hard i tryed. You amd how we use to be but now you wont even look in my direction anymore.
All i wish for is for things to go back to how they use to be or atleast be friends again and then work our way up. I only need one thing. One super power. A speacial ability that will concore all others for me. The ability to go back in time . To fix all of my mistakes that i have made in the past and also to treat you better. Trust me, I know that im not normal or like other people, but you said that you liked me for who i am , not some one im not. With all of my flaws and mistakes that i have made in my life. Even with the dumbest things and decisions that i have made, you were still there for me. The feeling that I get when I'm around yo can't even be described in words because they are too powerful.You told me mean and hurtful things but that made me who I am today. A carreing, nice, loving, happy person and I still am to this day because you. All ever wanted wasntonstart over and at least be friends again and then try to wok our way up.
I try to start a conversation with you but, I guess, you are just to dissapionted and descusted in me for dateing someone else so soon. I am only dateing him because I was crying and the day that you left me alone in the cold, dark rain. He was the only person their for me in my time of need. Sometime I think that he was only dateing me because I was at my week piont amgh
