ALEXA!!!!

Chapter 1

I wish there were words to describe how I feel right now. I wish there were words which would help me know how to say sorry, how to say a hello instead of a goodbye. I never wanted to say goodbye... Why did you?

You know Alexa, you've got so many people that love you here. I can literally see bouquets of flowers everywhere. However, the flowers seem to be wilting, unlike your smile that never disappeared when you were alive. Alive.... Never thought I'd had to associate this word with you, my friend. When I heard about... T-the incident, I never believed it. How could I? You were never broken, you were never hated. You took care of others, no matter their standard and here they are to take care of your dead body... Your loudness brightened my day and your silence is making me sway; with sadness, pain and misery, I hoped I never had to bare.

Was a blade so enticing? Was it more beautiful than the smiles on your mother's face when you arrived from school? Was it sharper than your father senses who saved you from every trouble before you even faced it? Was it more important than my return? More important than your best friend's return?

You promised! You promised Alexa.....

Flashback

Five years ago

"You are leaving?! How dare you? You promised you'll stick to my side till the apocalypse Lil." Alexa fumed. Smiling sadly, I hugged her tightly . "I'm gonna miss you so much midget." I mumbled into her shoulder . She elbowed me in the stomach.

"Well, its not my fault that I'm an average of 5 foot 2 inches and you are almost a 6!" She exclaimed .

" 5 foot 8 inches Alexa, calm your dramatic booty down. " I chuckled. "Yeah, yeah same thing."

I looked at her eyes with a silent promise. I never could express myself with talking. My thoughts were too jumbled with random, vivid imagines here and there but she knew. She knew I meant to cone back. She knew I wouldn't leave her forever, for, she knew me well.

"Promises are meant to be broken right?" She said with a soft smile.
" Let's break the rules like always shall we? " I laughed as I sat beside her on the grass, basking in each other's comfort.

"You're right.  Promises are meant to be fulfilled. I promise I'll wait for you Lilliana. You are the only one that understands me." I faced Alexa, who now had tears in her eyes.

" I promise to come back. I always will. Home is where the heart is right? And my home, my dear friend, is with you. "

Sobs echoed in the corridor. I looked around, trying to find the source of the sound which shook my entire existence. I walked to the mirror and found what I was looking for. The source to all the sobbing. I erupted like a volcano and hot, fiery rage burst out of me as I clawed at my arms, my legs, begging to cleanse myself off the mental pain. I crawled to my bedside table and grabbed a glass of water. I took a huge gulp and I felt like I was drowning. I choked, my senses dulling as I fell into a slumber of anguish.