December 25, that was the date. The day that changed my life forever. Dark clouds covered the sky, the snow falling slowly. The white trees stood tall and strong yet, dark and dreary. My breath taking form in the cold nights air.
I sat there. On the swings, not moving. Not swaying back and forth, I just sat there. Still. Lifeless. Gone. Everything just seemed so far away. It was like nothing. Nothing could ever bring me back from this. This was the one thing that could destroy me. The one thing that I was afraid to loose. The one thing that would change my life forever. The one thing in my life that I couldn't control.
December 25th, that was the date... The day that changed my life forever.. The day that I was raped.....
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September 15th, the day my kids were born. Twins. One boy, one girl. Lovinia (Pronunciation: love-in-ia) and Aiden. Twins with blond hair and blue eyes. They have my looks. They resemble me alone. At least, thats what I like to believe. I didn't see my rapers face. I was to disgusted and horrified to look at it. I believed I was going to be raped and murdered. I didn't want the last face I see to be the face of the man who was violating me.
My mother put her hand on my shoulder disapprovingly. "If you name them your going to want to keep them." "Mother, I've a;ready told you.. I'm not abandoning my children. It's not their fault I was raped." "Sweet heart. Your making a mistake keeping the kids of a man you don't even know. When they grow up and ask about their father what are you gonna tell them, huh!? Are you going to say 'Sorry kids I don't know much about him other than he's and your the mistakes that came out of it'" She asked with a totally serious expression on her face. That really pissed me off. "FIRST of all, they aren't some random rapists kids. They're MY kids. YOUR grandkids! And second of all they are NOT mistakes. I gave birth to them because I wanted them to live! To live for them! to live for me! TO LIVE! For God sakes mom, this doesn't even concern you anymore! If you don't want to be part of their lives than get the hell outta mine!" My mother burst into tears at this and the nurses came in with my infants.
They placed them in my arms and showed my how to breast feed them. Though I'm only allowed to feed one at a time. After that they showed me how to bath them and change their diapers. I was shown how to put them to sleep and how to change and hold them correctly. As I put Aiden to sleep, my brother Max who was only a year older than me put Lovinia to sleep. Little Aiden grabbed my finger as he slept. I already know I'd do anything for my babies. I love them so much already.
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