I can feel myself dying slowly inside.
The dreams, hopes and aspirations slowly drifting from me.
I struggle to keep my vibration up to escape the demons that haunt me.
You're never good enough, nor will have what you desire.
My spirit struggles to keep afloat, as I look at all the reasons I am a failure...
How can I deny it, I can barely get my life together.
I can barely get the man I love to love me.
But then I remember the child within - she hides in the corner.
She never did me wrong, then why do I allow the world to hurt her.
All she wanted was to be loved and accepted in return.
I gave of my essence over and over, and was temporarily tricked into reciprocation.
Will I ever get it right? I pondered.
Will this always be what I am- a weak bish who men easily walk over.
I cry out from somewhere deep within- help me- I'm dying!
I am so tired of it all- over the years, the scars they all left on my heart.
I don't know how much longer I can hold on...
All I know is I was once a beautiful soul, just wanting to give love to the world and receive it.
I find myself drifting, slowly into the abyss
.....and then...I remembered, this is not who I am.
Feelings are just visitors....I am not being hurt in this moment.
Yes- I gave them of my essence, however, I can make a new choice.
I don't need to be a victim anymore.
I can be stronger than I was, I can take a stand.
I am an extension of the divine.
A strong, wonderful woman who has all she needs to overcome.
No matter what they take from me- Gods love will forever remain in my heart.
And then- with that, I got the charge I needed to remember who the heck I am.
I am a goddess.
