Things I Wanted To Say But Never Did

A DUCHESS' LIFE

I need you here
I need you near
I need your pretty words
I need the zest of your shitty whores
I need your empty promises
I need your merciless tragedies
I need your inevitable catastrophes
Envelope me in your wretched love
That you yourself tend to dissolve
Into ashes it transforms
Then it turns into a new shape,a new form
How lovely yet ugly your love can be
Indeed but it's my destiny
I'm destined to cry myself to sleep every night
I'm destined to hear whenever you fuck a Harlot with all your might
Soothing music croons through my ears
But it does nothing to calm my falling tears
While you puff on your ciggar and put a smile on your face
My nails break through skin while
blood seeps onto my pink lace
You once use to woo me
We would wine and dine
But obviously that's long gone
The Harlots should've been a sign
As I dab on my new face
And smoke on my cigarette
I think of all my past loves
But still you are my greatest regret
Goodbye unknown lover thank you
so much for the heartbreaking pain
Because now I know that even if there's sunshine there's still the possibility of rain.