Silent Tears

Hurting Bad

'Dear Journal ,

I wanna go home. I hate everyone. Today's gone from bad to worse. Michael lying to me about dating when he's dating another chick named Carly. She was in his room! Where I should've been, with him . Why has he treated me like this for so long. Maybe if I change myself to look like her he'll love me for once...
One thing that's always been said was to never change for a man. No matter how much you care, no matter how much it hurts, you have to let go and move on. That's what I keep telling myself. Never again will I wait for a man, and if I love again like this, I'll never fully love him .
Michael C. Adams, I loved you like no other woman will. You've damaged my love and trust. I'll never show this to you ever again.'

After I finished reading this entry my heart physically aches for her. I had read many others containing things about this Michael. He's a real charmer, note the sarcasm. This girl has really been through some serious pain because of this guy and her family. If only I could be her escape, her happy place .

I'm still suspended because of Delilah. She still tries to get through my phone to me but I blocked her number and her ig account. I only have her number because we had a school project but she had to go on a family trip at the same time .

I called over Jason and Cameron and told them to bring the bud. My parents were gone for the work day and Jason and Cameron were t going to go to school anyway. Usually it me forcing them to go anyway but since I'm not there, there's no point in trying to force them. I hear the door bell ring and they enter. Immediately they start rolling up on the island in the kitchen after exchange greetings. I run upstairs and grab my bag of gas and rellos and head downstairs.
We roll up, clean up then head upstairs to my room and light up with the window open.
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