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09 | goodbye

ZHONG CHENLE。

i heaved a deep sigh and clutched onto the bouquet of flowers i had in my grasp.

i slowly walked on the grass fields, stopping somewhere nearby a huge oak tree.

i looked down at my feet,

"hey, love."

i gently propped the bouquet of flowers on her nameplate and sat next to it.

"i'm sorry that i only visited you just now.
i was afraid.
i didn't want to accept the fact that you were...

gone."

the corner of my lips slowly curved up into a smile.

"you told me in your letter that i should move on. that i would find someone better than you in the future. someone that would stay with me forever."

"you don't know how much i wanted that to be you, hana."

"we were supposed to grow up together."

"but i guess...

we don't always get what we want."

i felt hot tears escaping the rims of my eyes.

"life is cruel."

"it's so unfair."

"and yet you always loved
living every moment of it."

"hana...
i found someone new."

"you're okay with that, right?"

"i'm going to let you go now..."

"i know you're resting well. i can't believe heaven receive one of the most precious angels here on earth."

"her name is yoon haerin. she kinda reminds me of you. she's so energetic and full of life. and yet i don't know why she's all covered up in bandages."

"i really love her hana."

"i want to meet her soon."

"she made me realize what love really is.
i want to show her how much i love her in person."

"i can do that, right hana?"

"if you were here you'd love her, too."

i smiled as i wiped my tears away, "maybe you were the one who brought haerin to me."

"you're going to let me see her, right?
you're going to help me find her."

"i miss you."

"i loved you,
thank you for letting me meet haerin."

"i'll love her like how i always loved you."

"i'll do the things we always thought of doing together as we grew up."

"that's your plan, isn't it?"

"goodbye, hana."

i pressed my hand onto the ground where her casket was buried in. i clenched it, imagining it like i had my fingers interlocked with hana's.

slowly, i let go and stood up.

i looked at her nameplate and read the words written on it.

"don't forget me."

i smiled a bit before walking away.

"i know i'll never forget you,
that's why i'm accepting it
and letting you go."

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