Missing In Action [Straykids Seungmin ff]

Epilogue

"I want to find the days we've lost, I want to change the you who became different" - M.I.A

The school bell sliced through the defeaning silence in the hallway, as you waited for him to finished his classes. Some students eyed you, since you disappeared for a week after breaking up with Minho, and of course words spread. Your friends approached you. You slightly smiled, surprised but not disappointed at how they asked you to hang out with them, but never asked how you're doing after cutting ties with Minho. It took you a while to realized that you don't need to stay friends with people who never asked how you're doing. So this time instead of agreeing to hang out with them as per usual, you declined the offer. When you say "yes" to others, make sure you aren't saying "no" to yourself. Learn to say no. After all the thinking and reflection you had, you started to see yourself in a new light. You feel like a mirror reflecting back everyone's perception of you- fed up being their prisoner, you wanted to address and change that.

The hallway is almost deserted again like a minute ago before the bell chimed. Your listless eyes lit up when Seungmin emerge from his class. He looks rather surprised seeing you
"Minho is not here" he said deadpanned, but you just smiled and approached him. Since you're not here for Minho, tracing the tent in your pocket and fishing it out, putting it on it's rightful place after messing his hair, you stepped back to take in the full view of him. Content with your work

"That's more like it" you rasped out as you put his old specs on him paired with his usual disheveled hair. The glasses where cracked when you found it at the library after the incident and you decided to changed the frame as an apology for what you did that day, you were shocked and started to panic when Minho decided to venture the library at that time, of all places. But seeing as to how he doesn't need them anymore you just keep it with you and only decided to give it back to him when you're ready enough to show the real you. You can't be an hypocrite if you really wanted Seungmin back then it's about time for you to also act as yourself. With your newfound determination to make him yours, the only one thing you'd risk everything you build for; you raised and offer your hand for him to take, he titls his head confused and you chuckled amused how you saw the lost puppy again before your eyes.

"paws" to your surprised he gladly put his balled out fist to your hand and you caught sight of his red tinted cheeks, you imediately grip his hand- afraid that he might slip out from your hold and loose him again.

In a world that is constantly trying to make you something else, the struggle to determine your own identity and be yourself is real. Isn't it true that you have been through moments when you wake up determined to accomplish your dreams, the goals that you have set, the way you want to shape your life, yet you give in and find yourself giving in to the society pressures and personal anxieties? It is easy, convenient and less tiring to succumb to the opinions, thoughts, viewpoints, pressures, expectations, values and ideas that your kith and kin or society drives you to. However, it is very difficult to face your fears and be yourself. Confront the dark parts of yourself, and work to banish them with illumination and forgiveness. Your willingness to wrestle with your demons will cause your angels to sing.

It takes you a while to noticed that everyone else is taken, and you have to be yourself. To be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best day and night to make you like everybody else means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight and never stop fighting.

~ end.