Friends With Benefits. (BBRae)

Chapter 11.

*Mature Themes*

Garfield:

The closing of the hotel door sounded louder than it was. The tension in the room was to thick to cut as I sat on the end of my bed. Raven paced slowly in front as she slowly kicked off her heals. Her hair was disheveled as she slowly ran a hand through it. Purple strands slid through her pale fingers like silk, her dark nail polish blended in well as a gold bracelet stood out among-st the dark theme she had going on. Even though the conversation we were about to have was serious, I couldn't pry my eyes off of her.

Her eyes finally found mine and her mouth opened and then closed like a gaping fish. I raised an eyebrow but stayed quiet. If she needed a moment, I could wait.

She had an unreadable expression as she let a hand run nervously through her hair again. "What is your opinion on.. us being friends with benefits? And be honest."

Now it was my turn to look slightly nervous. Do I just come out and say it? I don't want to lose her after finally rekindling our friendship and besides what were the odds of her liking me more than a friend. When we were younger she use to be so annoyed with me, she acted like she couldn't stand to be in a room for more than five minutes with me.

Then again there was a long list of people that Raven couldn't stand for more than five minutes. But still, sex doesn't always mean that there's something more. It could simply be just physical. This was a bad idea, we should have never started this, I don't know what I was thinking.

I let out a heavy sigh and my eyes slowly lifted to meet her's once again. "I honestly think it was a bad idea."

I watched as her face shifted to something along the lines of hurt and I instantly stood up. "Not that your ugly or something! Your probably the most beautiful girl I've been with." 

She sighed and looked away in slight defeat. "I use to be mad at you for running away when things became hard. Robin became an ass and stayed that way until even now. But Kori had told me he's working on himself and I feel like if we would have just sat down and talked about it, some things would have been resolved."

She sat slowly in the spot I had just been sitting on and I took the spot next to her. She picked at her nails as they were clasped in her lap. Her head hung slightly low as her hair fell past her cheeks. Her eyes looked disappointed and defeated.

"But here I am now, doing the same thing you did. I'm running away from my problems.. I just.." She sighed and tucked the loose hair behind her ear.

"I can see the appeal of just running away" She chuckled sadly.

I reached over and grabbed one of her cold hands, I placed it on my lap as my warm hands cupped it. 

"I regret it all the time. I shouldn't have just left like that or if I left, I should have continued to contact you guys but I was blinded by anger and that wasn't fair to any of you guys."

I gave a gentle reassuring squeeze to her hand. "But you never strayed to far from my thought's Rae. I always thought about you, I just didn't think you'd want to contact me after I just left like that." I anxiously chuckled until it trailed off in the tense silence.

She bit her bottom lips as she shook her head slowly. "Yeah at first I would have been pissed but it would have been fine in time. It would have been so much better than possibly thinking you might have died."

I stiffened as she finished her sentence. "I'm sorry, I could see why it'd be hard to even become friends again after all of that." I left my tone slightly light as I felt a pit open up in my stomach.