Soul Breaker {Kaisoo § Chanbaek}

Chapter 4

He wakes up to Byun Baekhyun lying next to him on the bed, his eyes focused on his face, finger tracing Kyungsoo's lips.

The storm of desire dancing in his pupils has Kyungsoo breathless for a minute, tantalized and unguarded. All he can think about is reaching to touch, to let his fingers caress that delicious looking skin, to let his tongue wreck those beautiful red lips.

He catches himself at the last minute, breaking the spell by rising quickly and getting as physically far as possible.

Baekhyun has a startled expression before he frowns, his head coming to rest on his hand.

"You're no fun, Do Kyungsoo."

He does not seem the least bit embarrassed, lying there in his grey velvet suit. The chain on his lips is gone, the rings on his ears replaced by long emerald earrings. The liner is of a matching green color. Even his hair has changed, now a bright silver matching to perfection the color of his clothes.

Kyungsoo has never been more aroused and repulsed at the same time.

"What the fuck are you doing?" he asks breathlessly, a clear warning in his voice not to come any closer.

Baekhyun sighs, moving gracefully off the bed and hanging himself loosely from the bed post, looking bored.

"Jongin asked me to come wake you. You looked so peaceful in your sleep, I didn't want to disturb you."

The answer seems genuine but Kyungsoo is still wary. Baekhyun seems to notice and he plants his black eyes in his.

"I would never do anything you wouldn't want me to, Do Kyungsoo." The seriousness of his voice is so far from everything he's seen of the man it catches Kyungsoo off guard. Baekhyun doesn't seem to want to joke about this. If anything, he is adamant, holding Kyungsoo's eyes to make him understand.

He won't touch him further than this. Not if Kyungsoo doesn't want him to.

He nods ever so slightly, signaling he understands. Baekhyun breaks the eye contact and he is suddenly back to his normal self. "Besides," he adds "I have specific orders not to touch you."

He walks to the door and opens it, his eyes coming to roam over Kyungsoo's frame one last time.

"What a shame."

And then he is gone.

Kyungsoo takes his time to get ready, enjoying the hot shower and the soft fabrics of his clothes. All things he has been denied of for so long.

It seems there are hidden depths to all brothers. Not only madness behind the beauty but also pain, endless pain they can never hide. Perhaps they never try.

He didn't think he would ever compare fallen angels to humans, but he does. He feels it deep in his bones, how, for all their glory, they are very similar to the creatures they so despise. How they give in to their darkest desires the way only humans do.

He understands. He has lived most of his life in darkness, surrounded by the free roars of untamed desires. Humans left unchecked know no boundaries. He learned that in both the free and incarcerated world.

The only constant is pain, ever present, everlasting. It fuels emotions better than any other sensation. Love even is subject to pain. They have built entire societies to avoid it as much as possible, and still it finds its way in their hearts, wreaks havoc in even the most controlled environments.

Perhaps the brothers were right to start from pain. Perhaps they survived so long because they chose to embrace it instead of running from it. Kyungsoo cannot be sure. He hasn't been here long enough.