Abused

Alex...?

          TW: panic attack and self harm, if you don't want to read I'll summarize at the end.

       Alex walked in, drunk as a skunk. I was so glad I could just smile and guide him over to the couch where his "happy juice" was. It took so long to learn that skill, but I was glad that I did. He took a sip of his "juice", and then went to the bedroom claiming he was tired. I waited a little bit and then walked into the bedroom to pick him off the floor and put him in bed. I can't believe this is my routine now. 

     I heard a bump and looked to see if Alex was awake. He wasn't. So who could that be? I went out if the room to hear footsteps. My mind froze. Blank. The walls start closing in and I rush to the bathroom. What  if he's mad I told him to leave? What if he saw me with Alex? What if he tries to-. At this point my breathing was getting faster. And lighter. I curled into myself, looking around the room for the box. 

     I felt the smooth wood in my hand and opened it with my shaking hands. I knew I shouldn't, not with Alex passed out and Blank possibly being here, but it was the only thing that would help. I pulled out the little razor I kept hidden and pulled up my sleeve. I could faintly hear knocking on the door, but I ignored it. Alex would... not be happy if he saw this. I made three cuts, symbolizing three strikes, like I always did when things got bad. I heard the door click open, but when I looked no one was there. The door was open though.

     I quickly bandaged my... marks.. and decided to check out what happened. I looked in the bedroom to find Alex still sound asleep, snoring his ass off. I checked the rest of the house, but didn't see anyone. Eventually I gave up and, after setting some aspirin, water, and whiskey on the nightstand, crashed on the couch and fell into a dreamless, blank sleep.

362 words!! I know it's short, but I'll post another chapter in Blank's POV soon. Just so you know, you had an attack and self harmed, because you thought Blank was there, and Alex came home and passed out.

I'm thinking about writing an Ethan x Antisepticeye, if you guys think that would be cool. I got the idea from X_Checkmate_X 's book -Momento Mori- (I think I mispelled but OH WELL) and was wondering if any of you would read it. Also go check X_Checkmate_X out they're amazing and they're books deserve more love than they are given!!! Anyway, I still need an editor, and life is getting better since I last wrote. PM me if you want to talk, you guys are amazing. Don't be a silent reader!!!

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