Loid's POV
After what happened with Brin 2 days ago, we haven't talked to each other. We haven't even made eye contact. As I walked into the gates of school. I earned some glances from people from different directions but I didn't pay attention. I was to depressed to care. Depressed that I couldn't hear her laugh. Depressed that I couldn't see her smile her perfect smile. It was my fault. I did this to myself. I was stupid to think she liked me. Stupid to even think that kissing her would make her fall for me. Look whatit did for me. I was broken without her. I'm dying without her. I am defeated. It was like we never knew each other. That we wouldn't stay up till 1 am just talking to her about anything and everything. That we would act like an old married couple fighting about the smallest things ever but later realizing that it was nothing. That we spent hours just on the couch watching Mean Girls and drinking hot chocolate. That we would order the same thing when we went to starbucks. Everything we had just drifted away because of one little mistake. She was gone and there was nothing I could do about it.
Whenever I tried to talk to her she would just say "I can't" and walk away. It pained me to see her like this. The worst part was that I made her feel this way. That killed me even more. I needed her. I wanted her. She didn't want me back which was sad but I understood. I stole a kiss that was hers' and not mine. I was so sellfish. I knew I was. I know I am. I needed people to fill me in on what was happening in class. That's how messed up i am. I can't function without her. She was the light that guides through life.
