CONSCIOUS CONTRADICTION

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                                            𝐀𝐫𝐭𝐞𝐦𝐢𝐬 𝐓𝐚𝐦𝐢𝐫 𝐖𝐢𝐬𝐝𝐨𝐦           
    
       𝙵𝚃. 𝙻𝙰𝚄𝙳𝙴𝚁𝙳𝙰𝙻𝙴 𝙰𝙸𝚁𝙿𝙾𝚁𝚃 — 𝐌𝐢𝐚𝐦𝐢, 𝐅𝐋

"Flight 305 to Indiana, now departing" The flight attendant spoke into the speaker as my mother and I got out of our seats to walk to the line.

"Aweee my baby, I'm gonna miss you hun" My grandma came up and hugged me. "I'm gonna miss you to grandma, I love you. Ima try to visit as much as I can." I smiled.

"I'm just so proud that you finally found the courage to go back to school, after two years" She grabbed my face and grinned, looking deeply into my skin.

I felt a rush of sadness run over me real quick but it was quickly replaced by pride.

I'm now 20 years old, and I'm starting college off as a freshman, embarrassing right?

When I graduated high school, I didn't have the courage to enter college because of my insecurities. I decided that it was a new chapter that I was entering in my life and I wanted to start it off right. I hated my body. I hated the scars, the stretch marks, the cellulite, the love handles, everything. I couldn't even go to the beach without looking at myself in disgust and deciding to just stay home.

I mean, I wasn't particularly being bullied, but the men in Florida definitely had a type and I wasn't one of them.

I'm not even sure how I lost my virginity in the first place, my body was so sloppy looking back then, but one thing I can say about myself is that I always had a pretty face. So maybe that's why.

You know those "letter P Wendy Williams" built woman y'all go on all day about? Yeah I used to be one of them, keywords, used to be.

I took a two year break from college just to get my body right and into shape, I used home remedies to get rid of the stretch marks and scars, and did a natural breast reduction with exercise. My bra size went down 2 cups!

I can really say I'm proud that I pushed myself to become a better me and that I have a great support team by my side to help me with just that.

Now I'm on my way to Chicago to attend the University of Chicago and take part-time nail art classes.

"Here, don't blow it all in one go" My grandmother winked and slid some money in my purse.

"Momma we got to go board the plane!" My mom said to my grandma, while checking her Apple Watch.

"Oh shut up they ain't finna leave y'all asses, even if they tried.... now bye bye baby, love you, make sure to call often! Don't get pregnant now chile" She kissed both of my cheeks.

"Trust me I won't grandma, love you too" I walked away with my momma as we got checked to board the plane.

"Girl I hope that damn moving company done sent your furniture out there to your sister house or your ass gone be stuck like chuck." My momma laughed as we found our seats.

We were flying out to Indiana because my sister lives out there and it's close to Chicago, so why not fly out to her house, have the furniture go to her house too, then we all just drive to Chicago. Seems easier than to drive all the way from Miami to Chicago with a truck load of stuff.

"I hope so too, I'm gonna text her and ask." I said pulling out my phone.

"So how do you feel about finally giving school another try?"