𝙶𝚊𝚗𝚐 𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚎𝚛 ~ 𝚖𝚊𝚝𝚝𝚒𝚊 𝚙𝚘𝚕𝚒𝚋𝚒𝚘 😚

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                    god i hate partying
all the drugs and alcohol.

currently my only friend i have is dragging me to a party

she's a bitch to me but i have to deal with it. she's the only thing i have.

expect for my dad. but i don't think he loves me

he actually hates me. he hits me and just...

i never felt love or a real hug or a smile or a real laugh.

my mom died and that all went away..

but he's my dad, i still love him. it was not his fault, the drugs did it.

"come on! let's go party!" my bestfriend says

her name is amber.. she's beautiful. she's 17. she has blonde hair, and blue and kind of green eyes.

she's perfect in every way. she's skinny and she looks like a model. she's wearing a blue thigh dress.

well i'm over here... not so perfect

i hate myself.

i'm fat. ugly. i'm 17 as well and i have scars and bruises everywhere.

i usually cover them.

i have black hair. brown eyes. i look like a fucking rat to be honest

i'm wearing a red shirt dress.

we get out of the uber.

it's a big house

there's toilet paper and cups on the floor

you can already smell the drugs and alcohol

i pay the uber guy

amber is already in the house

okay... just leave me here.

me and amber made a deal.

i pay right now and when we go home she pays.

i try to catch up with amber. she alright went with her so called " friends"

i can hear them laughing and talking

i tried to be friends with her friends but i was not cool and popular enough so i just stoped trying

the music is so loud.

i go and grab a drink.

i have to be careful i don't wanna be drugged

i smell what i put in my cup.

i taste a little tiny bit.