I'm in love with my Ex best friend

im in love with my ex best friend (1)

    I really hate the fact that I had once called him my best friend. I thought we were really close. That's what I thought anyway but I'm guessing he didn't think the same way I did. High school had taken my best friend from me but he had a choice to make and he made it. He made it right in the beginning of 9th grade.

    *4 years ago*                

    "So are you excited for your first day of high school?" Sabastian asked me. We were both on our way to start our school year as freshman and I was somewhat happy but jittery at the same time. I turned and look at him and smiled and nodded my head. I glanced back out the bus window as it came to a stop as we picked up a few more people. I started to shake my leg a little as we started to move again. I haven't been looking forward to high school at all. I have been dreading it all summer and when today finally came I tried to play sick but my mom wasn't buying it. I felt a hand on my leg and turned to look at Sabastian. "Calm down Abby. I don't know why you're freaking out." He took his hand off my leg and put it on the seat in front of him. He rested his cheek on his arm and looked at me with his mesmerizing blue eyes. I stared back at him a smile on my face. "You got me anyway. No one is gonna bother you as long as I'm around." He smiled at me showing me his straight white teeth. I nodded and looked back out the window, waiting for us to pull into the school.

    We went to our homeroom and found two seats next to each other. When the bell rang the teacher introduced herself as Mrs. Anderson. She passed out everyone's schedule and talk to a few other people in the class room who had older brothers and sisters that had her a few years ago. She looked about 33.

    "Hey let me see your schedule?" Sabastian leaned over and grabbed it out of my hands. He looked at mine then his then at mine again. "We have lunch, English and Math together." He handed me back my schedule just as the bell rang we walked off in different directions because we had 5th, 6th and 7th together starting off with lunch. I was looking forward to see him again even though I just saw him like 5 seconds ago but you know he's my best friend. It's natural.I guess.

                                        

    When the bell finally rang for lunch I couldn't get up out of the seat quick enough. I stopped at my locker and tossed my books from the first 4 periods and grabbed my English and Math stuff. I walked down the hallway and strolled into the cafeteria. I scanned the cafeteria. It was pretty full. I finally when I spotted his shaggy dark brown hair in the back corner. I walked through the crowd until I reached him. I realized he was talking to Vinny and Conner. I tapped him on the shoulder. When he turned and looked at me his eyes that were warm and welcome this morning were now cold. I only ever see that look if he's really mad at me which never really happens. The smile on my face fell and was replace by a frown. "What do you want?" he breathed. If you couldn't see his face he would have sound calm but the way I was looking at it, it didn't seem that way. I just shook my head and turned and walked away. I heard Vinny and Conner start to laugh. I didn't know what just happen but I don't think it was anything good. And all I know is that my heart was hurting because I think I just lost my best friend.