Is This How You'll Remember Me? Toshinori Yagi x Reader (DISCONTINUED)

Chapter 4

Y/n's POV 

      Jesus, that was a little creepy. I mean did he honestly think that I would go home with him? I could get kidnapped or murdered!! I look up in the sky as I start walking home, I wonder if Toshinori was really a nice man. I mean I just met him but his aura makes me drawn to him. My cheeks slightly turn pink from embarrassment though no one is around. I slightly smile at the thought of myself maybe running into him. His caring smile rested quietly under his sunken eyes. 

      I shook off these thoughts as I approached the door, I turn the house key very slowly so that I could in quietly so I wouldn't bother James in whatever he's doing right now. 

 "Where have you been." 

  I turn to see James with a bottle of beer in his hand. He looked lustful, upset, and mad all in the same time. He walks over and caresses my cheek with the back of his hand, "You know I missed you right..?" he slurred as I just take in account how disgusting this was. He grabbed my waist and pulled me in, "You were always the sexiest cousin..." he said. I try to get out of his grasp but it was no use. 

  "Stay still. This is gonna hurt just a little bit..." 

A/N I think y'all know what happened 😔

   *7:00 am* 

 I hugged my knee's to my chest thinking that it would rewind everything from last night. I didn't sleep at all and when James was done he just told me to put my clothes back on and go to my room. I just feel nothing. I feel like I ran out of tears but they keep rushing out like there accidentally spilling out. I let go of my knees thinking I'm done crying but as soon as I'm sitting up on the side of the bed a few slip away. 

    Nothing can erase what happened last night. Nothing. I get up off the bed holding my stomach. I always imagined my first time with someone I loved very much, they would be caring and patient with my needs and what I want. I never imagined it would be like this...

  I pack my bags to go to school early so I wouldn't have to face the whore in my house. I didn't bother grabbing breakfast at the house so I just decided to get (favorite breakfast restaurant)  I let the food flood my mouth but as soon as I take a bite I realize how much I don't want to eat right now. I wrap up the food and put it in my backpack. Maybe I'll eat it for a snack (my large snack gang wya?) I walk quickly towards the school but I see a familiar face as I'm walking. 

"Toshinori!" I yelled, he turned around confused but I saw his face and he looked calm. 

    "Hey, how are you?" he asked with his caring smile. For a moment, just a moment, I forgot everything and there was just him and his smile. How can someone smile so perfectly. I smiled a sad smile and nodded. 

"Y/n. How are you?" he asked more sternly this time. I wasn't about to tell him shit. I met him last night. Are you kidding me? Hell no. Yet, a tear falls out of my eye, I need to stop crying before he starts asking too many questions. As I wipe the tear he looks at me with concern. He felt pitiful, I could tell, but I don't like that. I hate it when people always say, "I feel bad for you." I mean what is that going to do? It doesn't make things get better so what's the point of saying it. 

 He raises an eyebrow (or whatever he has) asking me 'what the hell is going on' I shake my head. 

"A little dust got in my eye and its small but painful ya know?" I say. He nodded but his face looked like he wasn't fully satisfied with my answer. But I wasn't about to tell a stranger that James had scarred me where no one else could see except me. And that's what broke me. I want someone to notice what he's done to my body, what he's done to me, but it's not visible. It's not really physical either. It was mentally and emotionally. 

I wanted to desperately change the subject so I walked and Toshinori slightly tagged along. "So where are you going?" I asked him. He shrugged, "I'm going to the store. My fridge is getting empty ya know?" I nodded just keeping my pace. I look over to see that the store on the left but Toshinori kept walking by my side. I wanted to say something so that he wasn't late but at the same time I wanted him there. He kept my mind at ease, and I tried not to think of what happened too much. 

As we approached the front of U.A he stopped in front of my. He put his hand on my shoulder, but I flinched slightly. I didn't want anyone touching me. Not after that. But I couldn't say anything because he would know something was wrong. I just made a sour face, as he asked the question again. "How are you Y/n?" this time he said it sweetly. He took his hand off my shoulder seeing my facial expression. I look straight up at him. I could tell my eyes were puffy and glossy. I smiled and put a thumbs up. "Better than ever!" 

Toshinori's POV 

I could tell that Y/n wasn't okay. I just wish they could tell me...but I get that they wont because I just met them last night. They looked so uncomfortable and upset when I rested my hand on their shoulder. I desperately wanted to hug them because with someone with that look on their face definitely has something on their mind that they could never forget. 

"I hope that whatever your dealing with gets better..." I say quietly enough so that only they could heat even though no one was around. All the students usually come at 8:00. I smile at them and turn around and walk towards the other way to make it look like I was headed towards the store. But it's gonna be a pain in the ass trying to get into the school from the back. I sigh and I look back seeing Y/n with their H/n blowing slightly in the wind. Y/n whatever your going through, I would like to be there to help. 

I want to see you smile.