As i sit at home on my computer pondering my past,
I think about what I have gone through; how long can this last,
I think about my friends long gone,
about the battles won.
And i believe that through all this,
what else can go amiss.
I think through all the depression I face,
I just could not win that race.
As i was forced to watch the explosion,
The explosion that destroyed my family,
I felt a desire to go into oblivion,
If I could join them worthily.
But alas I could not,
at this spot possible it was not.
