Alone in a crowd of people

Left behind

Pc is mine
All my entrees are connected, feed of  one another. 

Feeling your self slowly falling in to the background  while Being alone without a click. I mean this in both experience and the friendship way. So now your all alone in a room full of class/work people with no click to stand by you. Your stuck in a loop  ,a never ending crossroad filed with the sense of  anxiety and shame. Your behind and you need to catch up but u can't, everyone is screaming. "U need to have clicks you Ned to catch up ,your behind!, your behind!!, your behind!!!, your behind!". They're screaming "it at the top of they're lungs"
with panic,
•sadness,
•rage,
•disappointment
and finally rejection.
All this screaming and u know some of it is true. You do need to catch up you probably should have more clicks. But it's all to much all this screaming it's so loud to loud, it hurts so much. You can feel all the emotion they're screaming and this just fils you with panic. Desperation and anxiety is all u fell around the people screaming "it's to much". You try and try to catch up but you can't you're too slow, to far away. Anxiety is filing you to the brim your alone in a Rome full of people that don't fit. Your left behind waiting and wanting , slowly these things begin to meld. The feeling of being alone with no click as you slowly fall ,becomes one feeling. You  never felt any of these things separately. Slowly u begin to feel worse and worse but you don't see it because that's not the problem up front. All of the things are lost you can't blame them there's no one to blame. They don't click as you don't click to them. There worried of you being left behind , is sweet but suffocating. All that anxiety there giving off your absorbing. Theres no one to blame they aren't secluding you they don't mean to scare you. But it's all too much.