The Boy NextDoor (Park Jimin x Y/N ff)

5: The Truth Untold, Or Maybe Not?

4:00 AM  Y/N POV

i woke up to a nightmare, i tried waking up jimin but seemed fast asleep. so i decided to let him be, i got out of bed sneaking and i put on one of his hoodies and some jeans. i go down the stairs and enter the kitchen grabbing a glass of water and i was about to grab some pain killers a knife till.

''Y/N What are you doing up? its like 4 am?" i hear jimin call out from behind me as i clutch onto my glass water, i turn around and look at him. i had a nightmare, i woke up and u seemed to be fast asleep. ''is that my hoodie?'' the first thing he says after i just explained to him what happened. my face heats up and i nod shyly. ''cute'' he hums out before heading upstairs back to his room again. i quickly grab the pain killers and the knife, i run into the bathroom and lock the door. i start softly sobbing as i start running the bathtub, i was so done with everything i just miss my m-m-m-m-o... MOM! i finally spit out choking on my words, i hold on tightly to the knife waiting till the bathtub is somewhat filled, then i put it down and undress. i grab the knife again and enter the cold watered bathtub, sobbing soft cries but nobody hear me. i hold on tightly to the knife shaking as i bring it to my arm slight pressing it against the skin harsher and harsher. until i start slicing open my wrist. bleeding out as i put it down in the water, while i start getting dizzy i stab the knife into my stumache really fast and i knock out as i finish doing so. 

1 HOUR LATER

Jimin POV

its been a hour now, Y/N went to the bathroom and still hasnt come back. im worrying alot, what if something happened i should go check on her. i do as i say and run down the stairs kicking down the bathroom door as my eyes get welcomed to a heart breaking sight. i scream in horror and i burst out into tears my eyes becoming red, i pull out my phone shaking dialling the alarm number and i press the call button as it asks me if i ambulance police or the firedepartment. i immediatly say ambulance and i wait a second till it connects me i tell what happened to the ambulance and they are on their way, im holding on to Y/N as i can faintly feel her pulse. i knew something was up with her but i didnt expect her to leave me, i hear the sirens arriving at my house and the door opens they come into the bathroom. and take her away from me, i wasnt allowed to go with her to the hospital. Her dad was, i sit in the bathroom for atleast 5 more hours crying my eyes out shaking laying on the cold floor staring at the bloody bathtub. i felt like i was dying inside, i was cold, numb. i cant afford to lose someone so important. not having anymore patience after 5 hours i run my way to the hospital while crying with puffy eyes, if i run fast enough ill be there in 30 minutes but thats not fast enough, Y/N her life is on the table i remind myself as i start running insanely fast. eventually making it to the hospital in 10 minutes. i enter the hospital while crying and i ask where Y/N is, i got to hear they are still performing surgery to save her from the everlasting darkness, and i can only wait outside. accepting that itll help my princess, i wait outside of the surgery room. i was crying my eyes out as people look at me like im crazy, i bet i look like a psycho path, she never told me how she was feeling. i couldve helped her but no she kept to herself, i couldve stopped this from happening but i didnt. i knew something was up yet i was completely helpless, i couldnt do a shit and it was going to kill me inside but now i am suffering. it feels like my life is losing purpose all i want is.

My Princess To Life Happily Ever After, With Me.

But Maybe I Wont Ever Get To See Her After This.

i sob out quietly my head light from all the crying and panicing.

to be continued

sorry its short im lazy and im kinda writing this at the same day as the last 3 chapters-