Sesshomaru Lemon: Secret Affection

I Wanted You First

My body ached with pain I have never felt before. I tried to will my eyes to open but they just wouldn't. Wave after wave of pain echoed through my body. 'That bastard! The moment I get my hands on him I will rip his head off'. 

I felt a soft pat against my leg. 'Who could that be? Inuyasha? No.... Who?' The hand moved up my body to the spot where I had been stabbed. The soft lulling feeling of the hand made the pain slowly dissipate. 

'Why can't I wake up!' I screamed at myself. I felt my body twitch under the touch of this person. Slowly I regained movement in my fingers, one by one they moved. 'Good'. I shifted my feet slowly and quietly.  

Finally my eyes fluttered open. My vision was a little blurry but I could tell that I was still in the forest,  but it was dark now and there was a fire near by. 

His snow white hair came into view. 'That can't be Inuyasha'. Then I could clearly see his face. "Shessomaru?" I asked my voice shaking. His head turned to me, I was half expecting him to have that evil and annoyed look on his face. But his expression was unreadable. 

"Why didn't you choose me?" His voice held no emotion but his question was  emotional. 

I slowly pulled myself up into a sitting position. "What do you mean?" I replied still dazed from my injury. "Why didn't you choose me? Why did you choose him?" He repeated. 

"I've always had this emotion for you. But you chose a human over me". I was absolutely shocked. 'Is he telling me he loves me?' 

For some reason or another the hate I had for him began to melt away. 'Was he hurt all his time?' 

Words wouldn't form... I was completely at a loss. 

Next thing I knew his lips were pressed tightly against mine. My body froze. This must be a dream, there is no way on earth that this is Sesshomaru. I tried to push him off but my body was already weak from my injury. My hands were pressed flat against his chest trying desperately to push him off but it was useless, his hand caught both my wrists pinning them to the ground.

His kiss was surprisingly breathtaking. His lips moved softly against mine, trying hard to urge me into kissing him back. After a few minutes of my non-response he pulled away. Looking up into his gold colored orbs I was finally beginning to understand. "Just answer me one thing". My eyes shifted so we were no longer making eye contact. "Is this the reason why you killed Riku?"

He made no effort to respond to my question, his hand still pinned both of mine, he was still laid out on top of me; hovering over me. His hand released my wrists coming up to my face forcing me to look into his eyes. "I loved you first".

His voice was monotone but somehow held a lot more emotion than it did before. 'Love?'

As much as I had hated him for killing Riku I felt a little bad for Sesshomaru. 'Do I give in and let him do whatever he wants? Or should I end him for even attempting'.

"You and I were meant to be together". 

"Meant? How do you figure that?" 

"My father used to talk about you and the amazing abilities you had. He used to say you and I were meant to be together. From that moment I've always looked at you as my future, the one who would rule with me when my father passed. You were my whole world". 

"Your future?" His words struck me , this whole time he just wanted to be with me.­­

I pulled my legs underneath me, and pushed myself onto Sesshomaru, my legs straddled him, my arms holding up my upper half.

"Why?"

"Why what?"

"Why not tell me this before? He was innocent. He didn't deserve to die". My eyes were clenched shut. I could feel the tears behind my closed eyes. Tears escaped my eyes landing on his face, a hand came up brushing my tears away.