Hot Topic (A Johnnie Guilbert Fan-Fic)

I'm Sorry For The Things I've Done.

***Warning! This chapter may be triggering.***

***Johnnie's POV***

I haven't talked to Em since the thing at Starbucks about 2 days ago. I wasn't trying to flirt with the girl but Emily didn't seem to understand that. I needed to talk to her but she was avoiding me totally. Last night her a Stella came in at like 9 o'clock with a load of stuffed animals, popcorn, candy, and a ton of bags from the mall. I was outside on the swing set again last night thinking about all of this. Maybe I should just let her have her space and time. But what if she never talks to me again? I just really want to talk to her, I don't want to lose her.

***Emily's POV***

I haven't talked to Johnnie in a few days. I thought I could do this whole ignoring him thing for a little while but I can't. After Stella went to sleep last night I had woke up again. I crawled out of bed trying not to wake her. I walked across the hall to my bathroom and rummaged through my drawers until I found what I was looking for. One of my razors.

** warning I'll tell you when the stuff that might be triggering is over <3 **

I missed Johnnie so much right now. What if I totally blew it with him. I slid the cold piece of metal across my porcelain skin. I need to stop being so stupid. As the blood started to trickle down my arm I could feel myself slip back into old routines. I hadn't self harmed since I went on my first date with Johnnie. I guess he just made me forget about it all. By now I had my arms all slashed up. I was starting to feel very weak and I heard footsteps getting closer. Then someone knock on the door.

***Johnnies POV***

I woke up at 4 AM and was hungry. I walked into the kitchen to find a snack. I ate some cereal and then cleaned up my bowl. Just then I heard movement upstairs. I walked up there to see who or what it was. The bathroom door was cracked enough to see in and what I saw I wish I could un-see. It was Emily leaning against the tub with a razor blade laying in her hand. The once white tile was now stained red with blood. I noticed that her head was kinda bobbing around so quickly ran in. All I could think was why?

***Emily's POV***

"damn! who else is up at 4 AM?!" I thought to my self. I felt very dizzy now blood was all over the floor. I heard the door slam open and saw what I thought was Johnnie. I felt like I was about to blackout or something. Whoever came in here to help me was warm and gentle. Then right as everything was going black I heard Him say through tears "Please don't leave, I love you."

** Okay the part that might have been triggering is over <3 **

***No ones POV/Narration***

Johnnie got Emily up and wrapped up her arms the best he could. He proceeded to clean up the blood so no one would be too concerned. He got Emily to the car then quickly wrote a brief note saying:

Me and Em are gone out for a bit. Who ever sees this first call me.
- Johnnie

He then rushed to get Emily to the hospital. When they got there he carried her in and explain to the lady at the front counter what happened. She asked him to wait for a moment while they take her back. It was about 15 minutes of waiting that felt like 15 hours hours to him. The doctor then called him back. Emily was laying in the hospital bed asleep. The doctor said she would be in the hospital under suicide watch for about 2-5 days depending on how she did. The doctor said he could still visit regularly and with that Johnnie thanked him, got in the car and drove off. He drove to a special place so he could clear his head and think. The beach where they first kissed. He put on her favorite song until he got there. Soon enough he was there. Johnnie got out of the car and walked on the beach. Soon he decided to sit down and think. Just as he did his phone rang.......

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