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" forgive me father, for I have sinned" I talked quietly
"What have you done to bring you here?"
" I have come here because of the things I have felt. The things I've done. The things that I know would drive me into here. I know it would happen, I knew I would be here, But I couldn't help my self. She is so beautiful.-" I said before a loud crack of thunder rang through the church.
"It's a woman? "
" Yes father," I said, slowly after him. "The most gorgeous woman I have ever seen in my whole life. Her voice is like hearing an angel, her laugh is the angels sweet singing. I can't help the absolute bliss she gives me when she touches my skin, her soft hands against mine. She is perfect in every way possible. I can't subside this helpless feeling, it's the best feeling I have ever felt in my whole life and don't ever want it to end. No one can make me feel better than this woman that I have fallen for. Not even the feeling of velvety flowers against my skin, not even an angel, whispering sweet nothings into my ear, not even the touch of god. I love everything she does, every little, meaningless thing. She is as beautiful as a piece of art work... she... I" I stumbled over my words, not realizing I had started rambling. I sit in silence as the priest beside me never said a word. I felt my face burn with embarrassment by what I had confessed, waiting for a reply.
"..Father?" I said in a quiet tone as I turned my head to the priest sitting next to me in the confession booth.
The silence was like an church bell, screaming at me for what I had done.
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"God will forgive you.... but"
"but what Father?" I blurted out, just wanting an answer.
" You must let this woman go. God will lead the-" the priest was able to say before I cut him off. " No! I.. I cant just let her go!" I said abruptly.
" If..." I said getting quieter
"If gods forgiveness means I can't feel the things she makes me feel then, I don't want to be forgiven." I said as I turned my head away from the priest.
" You came here to confess and be forgiven, did you not?" He said.
" Yes father. I did" I whispered, not wanting what I knew what was coming.
" Then God will forgive you, but if you don't want to be forgiven, then your sins will rest heavy on your soul until you do." He said louder than before.
"Goodbye father" I said before I stood up and rushed out of the booth.
My footsteps echoed through the empty church around me as hot tears fell down my face at just the thought of letting her go. I wiped my face as I walked out of the church, as the dull smell of rain washed over me. I stopped running once I got out of the church and started Walking through the rain because it was the least of my worries. By the time I got to my car I didn't know if my face was wet because of the rain or my tears. I got in my car, getting rain water everywhere. Right before I was about to put my keys into the car my phone lit up. I picked it up and read the text message. The message made all those feelings of hopeless love, bliss, and everything in between rush back over me.
My everything 💖
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"I love you."
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