i fall apart mama, my thoughts are killing me, I feel hunted by my own darkness, I'm scared mama, I've been drawing with silver but it always came out dark red, my soul is lost in an ocean full of shiny stars that light up the darkest nights, except that my star has faded. But despite that she's still fighting to survive, battling for staying alive glowing again, but I'm scared mama that after holding on for so long, she'll get tired and give up, please mama, I'm begging you to look into my eyes and see the pain I'm in, don't feel it just understand it. Can you feel my heart mama even for once? Can you fix me even though I'm broken and my all pieces are lost? Can you love me with all my flaws?