For her, my dear friend

loyalty for my dear friend

I Didn't want to flutter away seeing her intriguing teary eyes. I couldn't afford myself to break again. I felt treachery in her big tears cause i only felt her selfishness through them. Those never-ending tears that was streaming down her red cheeks caused me nothing yet i found her apologise soothing. She asked me for forgiveness. But my heart was closed. My eyes were cold i could tell from the blurry vision as if she were no longer in my vision.

All i could do was seeing her crying, seeing unloved side. Comforting was no longer a choice nor exceptional. I still considered her as an old friend. Thus, i sent away maids from my room. As a crown Princess, she could not spread rumours anymore than that. I quietly gave her a handkerchief without showing any smile. Nevertheless, she turned to me longing for hug perhaps. Amongst the deep Ocean, the blood shore was asking me to comfort her. But i still wanted to grief for the daughter of marquis, Rebecca who died several days ago.

'Was i a good friend to you? Loyal to you? Then why wouldn't you turn these back to me?' All i ever knew was, " I could do the same for you. Why wouldn't you do it for me?"

"Hgh, Rebecca, I'm sorry. Because of me, you were sick. I wanted to, hgh, see you. But you know what His highness did?"

She sniffed and blew her nose which was clearly a part of true tears. However, It was a failure to calm herself while thinking about it. She burst into much more bigger tears than previous ones.

"Hgh, He sent her flowers and met in the garden. Hgh.. When i told her how savage she is..... He got angry at me."

I was shocked. A moment ago, all my mind could think 'Ah i thought it was a apology but why is she telling me these? Does she want me to pity her'. But then upon hearing that word from 15 year old young maiden, i asked her,

"Savage? You said her this?"

She looked at me with round eyes as if there were mountain of confusion in her mind. Although, I should be glad she stopped crying.

"Yes. Was i supposed to say vulger?"

'You're making more suggestion now?'

"My lady, You're the crown Princess of this nation. You should refrain yourself saying such inappropriate words."

After all, those words were really blunder if it were to say from noble ladies' tongues. Then again, she started crying again.

"Are you also getting angry at me? Its not fair."

"Whats not fair is the conduct His highness is showing. What is the fault of a young woman who fell in love when she recently debuted in high society. She was commoner before. It was all a brief dream for her."

"Rebecca? Are you...... Taking that woman's side? "

"Then are you telling me to talk honey about His highness? "

"Why not? She charmed him and stole him from me."

"Then he fell into those charm and forgot your highness who was always by his side. If he loved yo-"

'No. That was not appropriate time to show her reality. She rather live in dignity which she worked for since the age of 7. She- wait, why am i worried about her?' Let's focus on apologise.

As i diverted my gaze back at her, i noticed the tingling silence of agony as if she knew what i was trying to say. After all, She was a bright woman which was why she was crown Princess. Beauty, brain and hard work made her perfect from outside. But then she was a woman of that man from inside. She always dreamt of becoming his wife from the day they met. Although that man couldn't see the beauty in her innocence.

"Your highness, no matter how i see, it's his fault for not seeing you properly. Soon the days of his misery is coming. "

She tucked her silver hair behind her ears elegantly and looked at me, slightly smiling at me held my hand.

"Rebecca is a very kind person."

At such words, i couldn't help but feel astonishment. Soon, i cleared my throat and spoke up,

"My lady, if you sincerly want my forgiveness , i forgive you."

Actually i wanted to say, 'Here's the forgiveness, now leave.' But i couldn't, Seeing her being happy with my polite words.

Her brimming joyful eyes soon turned to remorseful hearing my next words.

"But... I cannot offer you my friendship anymore. "

Yes.
No more.
No more than that.
Yes. It was a loss. But not for me. For my family. Gaining a crown Princess' favor would put my Family to vanity.

However, Rebecca was dead. She was not alive anymore. She was poisoned by the person who was sitting in front of her in her room. But there was no proof.

Because
I
Reincarnated.