Maybe because it's something that i have to do
Maybe because it's something that i want to do
Maybe because it's something that i need to do
But you wouldn't understand because it's not what you want me to do
I will always be me
And you will always be you
Maybe because if i tell you you will shoot it down like a bird in a shooting range
Maybe because if i tell you you will ignore me and continue with your game
Maybe because if i tell you you will force yourself to believe it's not true
But you want me to tell the truth but maybe just maybe you want to hear your truth and not mines
Maybe you wanna hear what you want hear and not what is being said
Maybe you wanna see what you want and not see what is been shown to you
But again you wouldnt understand because i will always be me
And you will always be you
Maybe because u have this idea of who u want me to be
And i didn't live up to your expectations you set for me
Is it because i didn't do history, business or biology
Or even spanish hmm what a tool that would be
Maybe because i don't wanna do things your way
Have you ever thought that maybe it could be your fault
Have you ever thought you had a part to play
Have you ever thought that every action causes a reaction
My whole life i heard no so much that i just got tired of even asking
I can determine what you will say before you think it
But i just wish that one day you will allow it
But then again you would understand because i will always be me
And you will always be you
Soooo how am i supposed to live
In the bubble you created
In the world you graphed
In the atmosphere you accepted
But that shouldn't be
Why do you feel the need to choose for me
Why do you feel the need to control me
Why do you feel the need to treat me like something that is not ready
When my whole life you prepared me for life but you don't want me to live it ‘
You had me in a cell since the day i was born
You gave me food and water and kept the lights on
You gave me a education but you took my identity
You gave me one of the keys to my life but it only opens the door to the balcony
You gave me freedom but only for an hour and supervised
You gave me wings but warned me not to fly
You gave me pain but i refuse to die
I will be like kunta kinte and always try
But i know that one day you will take my foot away
But i pray to god that i wouldn't yield
And still fight to see my way
So don't blame me if i see a whole in the wall and want to explore
Don't blame me if i wanted to see more
More of what the world you refuse to show me
More of what could possibly be the beginning of my journey.
JanessaThomas
