Days passed in a whirlwind of emotions. It's hard to forget but yet i'm still trying to remember the days when our love was pure, us indulging every bit of it. Past may never fit in the future but to mistakenly make your future holding on to the past is never an option but why do we always choose it?
Trying to move on. I always failed.
"Dia." Napabaling ako sa tumawag sa aking pangalan na hindi ko pa kailanman naririnig. I always hated my second name and I don't know why this person have the guts to call me by that when I introduced myself in my first name. Annoyed, I smirked sarcastically.
"It's Nashi, were you absent the first day?" I asked.
He was just looking intently at me and smirked afterwards. Wait, what? Is he trying to annoy me? Well, he won but I won't admit it. Hindi ko na lamang siya pinansin at nagpatuloy na sa pakikinig sa baklang professor.
"Okay class, dismissed."
I quickly grab all my stuff and stand up as fast as I could cause I don't want to interact with the person who just annoyed me. Yes, I hate being annoyed, being a clown without my permission and them laughing about my existence. Who wouldn't, right? Unless you're like that yourself. Okay enough.
I always had a hard time dealing with people with social anxiety or maybe I was always the problem?
Nasa school grounds na ako at papunta na nang cafeteria. I always eat alone but whenever Kina is around, we eat together but today's a different day. Nakabili na ako ng pagkain and the challenge right now is to get a seat. School cafeteria is always packed during lunch that's why most of the students just go out to eat. I have no choice 'cause I still have my class at 1.
Tss, stupid schedule.
While looking at the seats I found one vacant pero napaatras din ng napagtanto kung sino sino ang nandoon. It's the annoying boy who's eyes were directed at me like I was his prey. Wala na rin naman akong choice kaya naupo na lang ako doon. It's not theirs, the table is owned by the school.
"Makikiupo lang, pwede?" I ask one of his tropa. He just nodded and smiled. Okay cool.
"Uy Travis crush mo oh! Hahaha!" Natatawang sambit nung lalakeng pinagtanungan ko kanina. I just ignored them, ganyan lagi ang trip nila ever since I layed my feet right on this spot. Minsan kasi'y nagsasabay kame tuwing wala si Kina. They're not my friends, kasama lang kumain? I don't know. I don't wanna know.
Napabaling ako kay Travis ngunit nahagip ng tingin ko si Lucas na galit na nakatingin sa kaibigan sabay sulyap sa akin.
"Wag ka pahalata Marco." Natatawang sambit ni Travis.
Hindi ko na lamang sila pinakealam at kumain na lamang nang matapos na.
"Nashia Dia Marquez!" Muntik na akong mabilaukan nang may tumawag sa pangalan ko. Naiinis na tumayo ako kahit di pa tapos sa kinakain at nilapitan si Kina na napakalaki ng ngisi sabay sulyap sa lamesang inupuan ko kanina. Hinatak ko na sya doon. Nakakahiya.
"Ano na naman yon? Ikaw talagang babae ka, saan saan ka umuupo." parang nanay na sambit ni Kina.
"Eh sa wala ka naman 'tsaka walang akong choice kundi umupo doon. Mabait rin naman sila, hindi ka pa ba nasasanay?" Naiinis kong sambit habang papuntang next class. Masyado pang maaga pero bahala na.
"Saan ka na pupunta?" ani Kina.
"Next class." Tipid kong sagot.
"Ang aga pa gaga. Tara dun muna tayo sa may bench." Sabay hatak sakin. Wala naman akong nagawa. Tss, lagi na lang ba ako namamanipula? Laging ganito tong si Kina, nambubulabog, nang iinis at higit sa lahat, namemeste. Sayang at ang ganda't yaman pa naman ngunit ganito kung makaasta. Okay enough Nashi, kaibigan mo yan.
"You know what? Yung bebe ko? naku, yung mga girls sa dorm, laging siya yung bukambibig." Ani Kina.
"Huh? eh namemeste nga yun. Bad boy na ba ang type ng mga babae ngayon? Sabagay ruthless is seductive but i'm not attracted!" panghihimutok ko.
"Uy si Nashi galit na galit. Ba't ang sama sama mo sakanya ha. Hahaha." Pang-aasar na may halong tampong saad ni Kina.
I rolled my eyes and then decided to go to my next class. I'll be wasting my free time here with this biatch who has nothing to do but update me with this crush, Lucas.
