"come here"

It was too much again. All the negative thoughts coming in, letting you scream in pain. Why is life so unenjoyable? Why do I have to go trough this pain? I just wanted to disappear. Why do I even have to live?

I want it to stop..

I don't want to feel the pain I am going through right now. I just want to feel happy again.

It's so long ago I was truly happy..

I know everything happens for a reason but why doesn't it stop to hurt?

I'm exhausted.

The door opended and Jaehyun came in. He saw me sobbing on my bed when his expression showed pure worrying.
"Y/N, what happened?" he sat next to me
"sshh~ come here" and hugged me tightly.

"tell me what happened Y/N. It will feel better to let it out"

And I did. I told him everything that was burdening my heart, what was filling my head and what made my heart ache like that.
I told him everything while sobbing into his shoulder.
His hand was drawing little circles on my back to try to calm me down a little.

"Y/N.. It's okay to feel like that. It's good to cry it out when your heart can't hold it anymore. I'm glad you told me. Holding it in and carrying this burden alone would just hurt you more and more.
If you ever feel bad about yourself, remember that you are the only person that thinks so bad about yourself. If someone is talking bad about you, try to ignore it because they are not worth your tears. No matter what burdens your heart now, it will get better. Your heart will feel better and you will get stronger. Everything happens for a reason. Try to replace the negative thoughts with positive ones. You archived a little goal you've set up for today? Celebrate it, give yourself a pat on the shoulder because you are enough. You are important, you are precious and loved. Nerver forget that Y/N. You can go trough this time because you are strong. You are so strong Y/N. Don't give up now. At the end of every black tunnel there is a light guiding you into the warm sun that will make your heart feel warm. You can do it. And don't even think about carrying your burdens alone. I'm here and I'll always be. Talking with someone you love and trust is so important. You can do it Y/N. I love you."

I was crying non stop. All those words just gave me new Strength, new hope. I just have to run and stand up no matter how many times I fall down in this black tunnel. I just have to run so I can reach my destination, the end of the black dark tunnel, the place where the sun warms the heart.

I couldn't be more thankful to Jaehyun for being here, for making me feel better..

..I was so thankful for that.

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Hi tteoktteoks!

I hope this short oneshot could brighten up your day a little ❤

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