Thoughts of a Wallflower

New Confessions | 4•21•20

Dear friend,
I know it has been awhile, but things have been terribly, horrid lately. I'm no longer obsessing about boys and my failing an honors biology quiz. I'm thinking a head, crying about the future that is yet to come. Wondering why it seems like everyone around me is successful. They boy in my English class who pretends to have an indie opinion on life has been getting straight A in every class, even though he swears he does no work. My stepbrother is making more money selling weed and edibles then I ever did working at that prestigious golf course summers ago. It seems like they have more motivation to do nothing, then I have to start planning for the future. My senior friends swear that having a portfolio saved their life. Frankly, if I tried I wouldn't even know where to start because I'm truly lost. I feel as if the more I watch the people around me the more I learn from them. Don't get me wrong I do, but I guess I'm too lazy to actually follow through with the lessons I learn. I hope things get easier soon.
             Lost for now,
                                     Iv