linger☆Reddie

HEE HEE 12

Richie and Bill drove to Portland, Bill played the Beatles that Richie complained the entire time about it. They walked with other people that had talked to them.

"So how old are you two?" the girl asked, draped across the guy walking with them.

"We're 16," Richie answered.

"Are you two dating?" the guy asked, pulling out a cigarette.

"Yeah," Bill quickly said, Richie became confused but just went along.

"Can I have one?" Richie asked motioning to the cigarette. The guy nodded handing him one along with a lighter.

Richie felt safe with these three, like he could be himself. He hadn't felt this way since before he told Henry, Henry was a safety net back then someone who would always be there no matter how much he fucked up. Sometimes he entertains the idea that was the reason he sprinkled Eddie's skin with bruises, because he thinks he felt that he had to choose one or the other. He knew now he chose wrong.

He also felt guilt and doubt walking there, he didn't feel like he deserved to be there because he wasn't fully gay he didn't only like boys and peices of him made him feel insignificant.

Bill's hand grabbed Richie's. Richie knew this was wrong, his hands didn't feel soft and warm, they didn't reach him in the middle of the night, they were comforting even if it was wrong.

"So how about you two, what made you decide to come?" Richie asks, smiling.

"Well I'm trans and he didn't want me to go alone" she smiled, showing crooked teeth hiding her blue eyes.

They continued talking, Bill looked over to see homophobic assholes. He couldn't help but think his parents would be there instead next to him. He shook his head and looked back at Richie, how can he be so unafraid. 

The event ended and they started their trek back to the car. 

"This was fun Billy" Richie smiled softly, swinging their hands.

"Yeah thanks for coming with me" 

They got in the car, Beatles music playing as it turns on. Someway or another they ended up with their lips on each other's trying to meld together. Richie normally took things too far, this time he was too intimate. Bill pushed him away wiping his lips.

"I'm sorry, I don't know what I'm doing" his stutter was thick, and he looked like he was about to cry "Sorry"

"It's fine Bill I was obviously enjoying it" Richie bit his fingernail. "I kissed back it's alright"

"Yeah but Eddie and Stan you know" Richie barely made out what he said from how bad his stutter was.

"Hey it's ok breathe it's ok. They don't matter right now just calm down ok" Richie held his hand in desperation for it to calm him down in any way.

"I didn't mean to, it's just being into guys didn't seem bad with you and and" 

"Bill it's not your fault, and it's ok to kiss people, you know that right" 

They went silent for a little bit, Richie rubbing his knuckles as he leaned his head on the steering wheel. 

"Stan's a better kisser than you" Bill smiled looking over at Richie.

"I seriously doubt that is true information"

"Sorry" he smiled looking at Richie's jaw move as he prepared to speak.

"Here it is folks stuttering Bill is apologizing again" Richie says in his announcer voice. "It's really ok"

Bill felt something in him realize he could fall in love with this boy, easily he probably knew this already but sitting in the car like this it is blatantly obvious. Maybe in a different life they would've fallen in love, cried on each other's arms, go to one another for comfort, and simply be in love but of course that was not this one they both had another.