first ( k.seungmin x male reader ) ✓

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seungmin laid in his bed staring at the ceiling. he couldn't stop thinking about a certain someone. that someone of course being y/n.

meeting him in person was way different than seungmin thought it'd be. he barely said two words to the guy and they didn't hug or anything like they'd talked about. once they all got home, they decided that y/n would stay with them for the night and then sleep at a hotel the remainder of his visit. the other members were all over him, and seungmin couldn't help but feel jealous. but y/n wasn't his.

he let out a big huff of air and quickly sat up. sleep was just not cooperating with him tonight. he rubbed his bare face before deciding to get up and grab a snack from the kitchen, of course trying not to wake his roommate in the process.

as he walked tiredly into the kitchen, he saw the light was already on, and y/n just so happened to be sitting at the island table with a notebook and air pods in. shirtless.

seungmin felt his heart race as he double checked the time with furrowed brows. sure enough, it was three in the morning. he shook his head and continued to do what he'd planned.

the second the boy was in y/n's view, he paused his music and stopped what he was doing.

"hi min.. what're you doing up at this hour?"

seungmin shifted his attention to y/n. he felt like melting. how could someone be so attractive? and how could he be so attracted to one person?

"uh.. i couldn't sleep," he answered with a shaky voice. it was hard to not look at y/n's bare chest. he couldn't lie, it was hot.

y/n looked down confusedly, wondering where seungmin's eyes were going. he realized he was shirtless and instantly put his pen down.

"sorry.. i forgot.." he mumbled out as he grabbed his discarded shirt from beside him and put it back on. seungmin almost whined. as flustered as he may have felt, he definitely didn't want the other to put it back on. at all.

"that's alright.."

y/n sighed as he watched seungmin fumble around the kitchen for a second deciding what snack he wanted. the awkwardness was almost suffocating.

"minnie.. can we talk seriously for a second?"

seungmin felt like his heart was going to pop out of his chest. he wanted to curse at y/n for making him so nervous.

"of course."

"i just really don't want things to be awkward between us while i'm here. we had a thing, but you ended it and i respect your reasoning. let's put it behind us and be friends, sound good?"

seungmin just looked at y/n.

he ended it. why did he end it again? maybe he didn't want to put it behind them. maybe he wanted to be with y/n. maybe he wanted to say fuck the company and the dating ban.

"sounds good."

y/n smiled at the response and nodded, going back to whatever he was doing in his notebook.

seungmin turned to one of the cabinets as his thoughts filled his head. he wanted to cry. he hadn't even known this guy for that long and he already felt so attached to him.

"i wanna be with you."

y/n looked up again with raised brows.

"what?"

seungmin turned to meet his eyes as he clenched his fists.

"i wanna be with you. i wanna hug and kiss you like we talked about. i wanna tell the other members to fuck off with their physical affection because i'm the only one allowed to do that with you. i just want you."

y/n's heart broke as he watched seungmin fall apart in tears.

"seungmin.."

"but i really can't."

y/n stopped at the sound of the other's voice again.

"i can't be with you."

seungmin rushed out of the kitchen, still crying. y/n didn't know what to do. he just sat and stared at his notebook.

"fuck.."

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